The idea of a partner to ctb with is comforting. I found that once I found an individual with the same desires as me to bring me a sense of peace when thinking about what is to come. I would just like to offer a story for caution.
My partner and I became very close. We had met to test methods and failed. This led to a mutual bonding about trying to find another method. We kept in contact and arranged a more sure fire method. Mind you we had established a strong bond and had what I thought to be a mutual trust in one another. Once the second method became more viable and the day was getting closer, they ghosted me and called in a welfare check on me from states away. Trust dissolved.
Just posting to warn others that you can't be in someone else's mind and sharing something as serious as ctb intentions with someone can lead to shitty consequences. Learn from my mistake.
My partner and I became very close. We had met to test methods and failed. This led to a mutual bonding about trying to find another method. We kept in contact and arranged a more sure fire method. Mind you we had established a strong bond and had what I thought to be a mutual trust in one another. Once the second method became more viable and the day was getting closer, they ghosted me and called in a welfare check on me from states away. Trust dissolved.
Just posting to warn others that you can't be in someone else's mind and sharing something as serious as ctb intentions with someone can lead to shitty consequences. Learn from my mistake.
I would find it really confortable to have a partner but yes, it would come with different factors we can't really control... It is very risky. I would like to have someone in my surrounding that I have known for years and with whom I am really confortable to ctb with me. But this person does not exist 
