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DrownFeather

DrownFeather

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Apr 7, 2022
184
Hey 👋

I tried to hang in partial mode, i already had rope but i tried with shoe lace instead because why not haha

So here is a detailed report on testing multi position and weights:

Ok so shoe lace was about 1.2m or more, i made slipknot with it and then made the knot behind my neck under my jaw line, tied the end of shoe lace to doorknob and then just sat immediately and layed with my back on door and pushing my face down till i felt it was enough weight, but under the jaw was a bit pain not much just a bit, but what made me stop it was i felt asphyxiated and needed to breath and felt my trachea is crushing, so i got up and made it under my adam apple by few inches space, just put it in the end of neck down, then tie around my head tight and layed on the floor instead of sitting, i felt the head explosion sense, because i felt there was not enough weight of body to press on the knot, and that's why you feel head explosion, you have to put enough weight of body! So... My last try was the knot tied tightly and then same position (knot on end of down neck) i sat immediately without hesitation then i felt like i was need to shallow (it's bearable) but this time no pain or head explosion sensation, i was able to black out and was peaceful but got up not because of Sl but because it's not my time yet

TL;DR : put knot under you adam apple instead of lower jaw line and throw your weight on floor with all your power without hesitation, you will blackout, pass out and then be dead later

Note: that shallow desire was not painful just uncomfortable, if you put a padding + drunk or sleep pills, you will not feel it
 
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Of The Universe

Of The Universe

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I feel terrible just reading about this,let alone doing it. I know I will never ctb unless its my SN or I get N or something like that.😮
How do you do this to yourself?
I apologize sincerely if I offended you. I guess I got...empathy,yeah,that's the ticket,empathy.🤗
 
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DrownFeather

DrownFeather

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I feel terrible just reading about this,let alone doing it. I know I will never ctb unless its my SN or I get N or something like that.😮
How do you do this to yourself?
I apologize sincerely if I offended you. I guess I got...empathy,yeah,that's the ticket,empathy.🤗
Well i don't have access to SN or N so i went hardcore, and im fearless of death i never felt Sl holding me because im so done of this shitty life, but don't panic! It's not painful at all! Nothing is scary just feel of little pressure thats it, well i think life fucked me enough to go hardcore and sacrifice myself ahaha
 
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Ednospatient

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Fuck I'm jealous
 
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DrownFeather

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Apr 7, 2022
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I have tried partial with shoelaces like 10 times and I can't black out no matter how hard I try
im sure something you did is wrong and you might repeating it everytime, did you feel something suspicious about your setup? Like not enough weight or wrong angle, maybe wrong spot?
 
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Ednospatient

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Sep 2, 2021
408
I have attempted partial hanging in just about every position imaginable but I can't make myself pass out. I've attempted probably 15 times by now. I've gotten close but not enough to lose consciousness. I've tried sitting down. I've tried kneeling. I've tried with the ligature above and below my adam's apple, no success. There is clearly something I'm not doing right but idk what.
 
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What's your knot? Can you measure or guess how much weight you put on the knot (kg)?
 
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Ednospatient

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Sep 2, 2021
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What's your knot? Can you measure or guess how much weight you put on the knot (kg)?
I'm using a slipknot, and how am I supposed to measure the weight? I know it's a lot because I was really trying hard
 
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DrownFeather

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I'm using a slipknot, and how am I supposed to measure the weight? I know it's a lot because I was really trying hard
Did you try to put it at pulse areas, put your thumbs on carotid arteries, if you found pulse put the the knot in that spot
One way to measure is via spring balance device which can indicate how much weight you pushing down
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

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Sep 24, 2020
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That sounds like an awful way to die, to me. I have never attempted hanging as I am scared of it going wrong. I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I hope you find relief from your pain in whatever happens.
 
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eLdus

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Apr 9, 2022
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Does practicing like this leave obvious marks on your neck that people could notice?
 
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DrownFeather

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Does practicing like this leave obvious marks on your neck that people could notice?
I had mark for 1 hour but then started to fade out quickly
 
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DrownFeather

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Apr 7, 2022
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Thanks that's helpful to know. I wish I was as fearless as you in doing this.
No problem, Tomorrow going to test full suspension and will report here
Except if there was someone around me might not able to test
 
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headspin

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I have attempted partial hanging in just about every position imaginable but I can't make myself pass out. I've attempted probably 15 times by now. I've gotten close but not enough to lose consciousness. I've tried sitting down. I've tried kneeling. I've tried with the ligature above and below my adam's apple, no success. There is clearly something I'm not doing right but idk what.
I have tried too, with multiple knots, and cords. I hear you, I don't have the fortitude. I ordered SN. I need it to work.
 
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luke_skywalker

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Mar 22, 2022
67
Hey 👋

I tried to hang in partial mode, i already had rope but i tried with shoe lace instead because why not haha

So here is a detailed report on testing multi position and weights:

Ok so shoe lace was about 1.2m or more, i made slipknot with it and then made the knot behind my neck under my jaw line, tied the end of shoe lace to doorknob and then just sat immediately and layed with my back on door and pushing my face down till i felt it was enough weight, but under the jaw was a bit pain not much just a bit, but what made me stop it was i felt asphyxiated and needed to breath and felt my trachea is crushing, so i got up and made it under my adam apple by few inches space, just put it in the end of neck down, then tie around my head tight and layed on the floor instead of sitting, i felt the head explosion sense, because i felt there was not enough weight of body to press on the knot, and that's why you feel head explosion, you have to put enough weight of body! So... My last try was the knot tied tightly and then same position (knot on end of down neck) i sat immediately without hesitation then i felt like i was need to shallow (it's bearable) but this time no pain or head explosion sensation, i was able to black out and was peaceful but got up not because of Sl but because it's not my time yet

TL;DR : put knot under you adam apple instead of lower jaw line and throw your weight on floor with all your power without hesitation, you will blackout, pass out and then be dead later

Note: that shallow desire was not painful just uncomfortable, if you put a padding + drunk or sleep pills, you will not feel it
" i was able to black out and was peaceful but got up not because of Sl but because it's not my time yet"
If you blacked out, how were u able to get back up?
 
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" i was able to black out and was peaceful but got up not because of Sl but because it's not my time yet"
If you blacked out, how were u able to get back up?
Blackout mean my vision got dark and blurry and was hearing buzz in my ears beside feeling tingling and feel of "just let go", while passing out mean complete unconscious state, but i was would pass out if let go cause i felt sleepy
 
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luke_skywalker

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Mar 22, 2022
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Blackout mean my vision got dark and blurry and was hearing buzz in my ears beside feeling tingling and feel of "just let go", while passing out mean complete unconscious state, but i was would pass out if let go cause i felt sleepy
oh I understood blackout as passing out :( sorry haha im non english native speaker
 
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