Retched
I see the chaos in your eyes.
- Oct 8, 2018
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I read somewhere that partial is for people who partially want to commit suicide. This is resonating with me right now. I don't know if I can "make it work." It takes so much will power, yet seems so simple for people to actually go through with it when you read it in the news of partial or what other people post about being able to black out.
What am I doing wrong? Why can't I follow through. It's so easy to back out of I guess, so when survival kicks in....it isn't even an issue to back out of it. Guess I should commit myself to another method. I've whined on here a lot about partial & survival instinct and universal interventions, I guess that I need to stop caring about those interventions and stop trying a method that just plain is not working for me. I feel like such a failure in death as well as in life. Partial seemed so easy a while back. Now it doesn't.
What am I doing wrong? Why can't I follow through. It's so easy to back out of I guess, so when survival kicks in....it isn't even an issue to back out of it. Guess I should commit myself to another method. I've whined on here a lot about partial & survival instinct and universal interventions, I guess that I need to stop caring about those interventions and stop trying a method that just plain is not working for me. I feel like such a failure in death as well as in life. Partial seemed so easy a while back. Now it doesn't.