Venting Parents

[Darkarage]

They think that I'm possessed by a demon, they don't want to give me support. They actually burned my books, they were about philosophy. I'm sad about that. My real problem, is that I don't have friends, I'm dying alone. I don't know what I can do now, I'm completely depressed, evey year is getting worst, every year that passes, I lose more... Two times I tried to ctb, the third one will be the last one.

 

[Olach]

Try to explain to your parents that you need a psychologist.

 

[Darkarage]

Try to explain to your parents that you need a psychologist.

I have already told them that I need a psychiatrist too, but they're convinced that I'm "possessed". I'm not as far as they think, I'm probably an asperger, I talked to some of them, and most of aspergers were at least, skepticals. They has similar problems as me with their parents...

 

[GeorgeJL]

They think that I'm possessed by a demon, they don't want to give me support. They actually burned my books, they were about philosophy. I'm sad about that. My real problem, is that I don't have friends, I'm dying alone. I don't know what I can do now, I'm completely depressed, evey year is getting worst, every year that passes, I lose more... Two times I tried to ctb, the third one will be the last one.

That's fucked up that they burned your books. Man I would be pissed.

 

[Jc40]

Can you see if there's any online counselling? Do you need their permission? Hope you'll be okay.

 

[Gray Wounds]

Oh boy, that's exactly what mine did to me as well! They thought I was possessed and burnt all of my journals, several dvds, books, and things. And they are still doing it all to me now. It's a torture, waking up at night and seeing your mother put holy waters at your head while drawing a cross with it, waking up at night to hear her chant something at me. Or in the bathroom where she puts her religious necklace on the pails full of water to make them holy or bless them. Or watch her bless your phone with her tattered prayer papers and then jerking away from it in shock as I enter the room (my room). Or tell me not to wear black because it is demonic, not to be with the lgbts because they are demonic, not to read too much because it is demonic. Fuck her. Fuck them all. And then my biological whore of a mum told me that I am like this because of my intelligence. She told it just because she is actually a dumb bitch who didn't study anything at all not because she can't but because she chose not too.

Really, everyday is me hiding. Everyday is me not being me because being me is a crime. I am a crime. I am the malfunction of their fucking world. And they are just fucking me but I am trying to fight. And now that i am fighting them and their stupid fucking beliefs, I am being called demonic or possessed too. Fuck them.

They saw my cuts and said that I am influenced by the devil. I told them I was not feeling well, they said that I am well and that I am just imagining it. I told them that I need a psychiatrist, they said I just need me to control it all. I told them that they are wrong, they prayed right in front of me. Fuck them.

 

[reznikoff]

That's horrible! Burning books is just stepping over the damn line. Fucking sucks, man, i'm so sorry.

And don't worry. You have friends on SS. We're all here for each other.

 

[Darkarage]

Oh boy, that's exactly what mine did to me as well! They thought I was possessed and burnt all of my journals, several dvds, books, and things. And they are still doing it all to me now. It's a torture, waking up at night and seeing your mother put holy waters at your head while drawing a cross with it, waking up at night to hear her chant something at me. Or in the bathroom where she puts her religious necklace on the pails full of water to make them holy or bless them. Or watch her bless your phone with her tattered prayer papers and then jerking away from it in shock as I enter the room (my room). Or tell me not to wear black because it is demonic, not to be with the lgbts because they are demonic, not to read too much because it is demonic. Fuck her. Fuck them all. And then my biological whore of a mum told me that I am like this because of my intelligence. She told it just because she is actually a dumb bitch who didn't study anything at all not because she can't but because she chose not too.

Really, everyday is me hiding. Everyday is me not being me because being me is a crime. I am a crime. I am the malfunction of their fucking world. And they are just fucking me but I am trying to fight. And now that i am fighting them and their stupid fucking beliefs, I am being called demonic or possessed too. Fuck them.

They saw my cuts and said that I am influenced by the devil. I told them I was not feeling well, they said that I am well and that I am just imagining it. I told them that I need a psychiatrist, they said I just need me to control it all. I told them that they are wrong, they prayed right in front of me. Fuck them.

I can comprehend you men, maybe yhe last year or two years ago they did something similar to me. Without telling me they entered my room, and they "blessed" it. And now you can still see the hand marks on the walls made of cooking oil. It's fucking ridiculous! They told that a psychologist and a psychiatrist treatment is a waste of time and money, and that a person don't need "legal drugs" to overcome a mental illness, or even, they don't about the temporary crisis that can happen sometimes. It's stupid, my purpose in this life if I survive, will be to do something which scares them till make them piss in their own pants.

 

[Gray Wounds]

I can comprehend you men, maybe yhe last year or two years ago they did something similar to me. Without telling me they entered my room, and they "blessed" it. And now you can still see the hand marks on the walls made of cooking oil. It's fucking ridiculous! They told that a psychologist and a psychiatrist treatment is a waste of time and money, and that a person don't need "legal drugs" to overcome a mental illness, or even, they don't about the temporary crisis that can happen sometimes. It's stupid, my purpose in this life if I survive, will be to do something which scares them till make them piss in their own pants.

You had it worse too. It's just traumatic isn't it? And then they ask you about why you're not confiding with them or spending most of your time with them. :( Just so wrong

 

[deshper]

Wow i'm very sorry to hear that. Your parents sound very extreme and I can partially relate so I know how much it can hurt. My issues started when I was underage so I never really had any rights when it came to being forcefully hospitalized, neither did my parents. My family and my mom is not at all religious, however my dad has gotten progressively worse as he's gotten older with religion. At this point, he thinks the same thing that your parents think but I guess my situation is not as extreme because he doesn't interfere with my treatment. Maybe it's because he almost saw me die so many times at this point that he doesn't want to risk it, I'm not really sure. I think what hurts the most in these kinds of situations is that the problems we face and the pain we suffer through is very real, and it hurts more to have someone erase it all and wrap it up as a "possession", especially because possessions can be fixed and a majority of the time what we face is a lifelong struggle and cannot be simply fixed. I think parents like this may just want an easy answer.

 

[Psilo]

They think that I'm possessed by a demon, they don't want to give me support. They actually burned my books, they were about philosophy. I'm sad about that. My real problem, is that I don't have friends, I'm dying alone. I don't know what I can do now, I'm completely depressed, evey year is getting worst, every year that passes, I lose more... Two times I tried to ctb, the third one will be the last one.

Are they religious or something?

Sorry I can relate to a certain point, I'm a loner too, being alone sucks. Shout out to all loners out there!

 

[Roberto]

They think that I'm possessed by a demon, they don't want to give me support. They actually burned my books, they were about philosophy. I'm sad about that. My real problem, is that I don't have friends, I'm dying alone. I don't know what I can do now, I'm completely depressed, evey year is getting worst, every year that passes, I lose more... Two times I tried to ctb, the third one will be the last one.

Try to reach a social assistant and tell what what your parents think about you and that you need professional help of psychologist or psychiatrist.
I'm so sorry about what is happening to you. A big hug.