Venting Painfull to live

[Ailashan]

I can't keep going. I am constantly feeling extremely bad and all i can do is sleep, train or play video games to cope. When i stop all the memories come back. Always feeling tired when i wake up no matter how much i sleep too. Still gotta wake up for school. I hate school. I hate studying, i feel so frustrated to not understand anything no matter how hard i try. Today we had a prevention against bullying. Wish they took actual measures against bullying 6 years ago so i didn't get bullied for years in middle school. Parents only cared about my grades, laughed at me when i was seeking for help. I need nice people. But it's rare. I can't sleep. Too many memories. If I sleep i'll wake up tomorrow. I don't want to wake up. I want to stay up at night, where people don't come at me to harm me. But i am so tired. I need to ctb. Fast. People want to harm me they hate me

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel so tired of suffering in this existence, it's so horrible how many humans create so much harm. But anyway best wishes.