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infinitefears

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Apr 16, 2024
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My partner and I have a suicide pact. Lately, I've been feeling like her depression is mostly a result of my mental illness and I'm just dragging her down. I feel like she could be happy without me. I want to go without her. I love her and I want her to be happy, and I feel like I'm an obstacle to her happiness. I wanted to die after my mom passed - I couldn't bear the thought of her getting that news, and she's passed at this point. I truly feel like a burden to society, my partner and I've already wanted to complete our pact after Christmas which was our agreement but she keeps pushing the date. I think she knows as well she'd live a better life without me. IDK what I'm trying to say, I guess the things I want to say to my partner but it hurts her too much to hear.
 
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reaasd11

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My partner and I have a suicide pact. Lately, I've been feeling like her depression is mostly a result of my mental illness and I'm just dragging her down. I feel like she could be happy without me. I want to go without her. I love her and I want her to be happy, and I feel like I'm an obstacle to her happiness. I wanted to die after my mom passed - I couldn't bear the thought of her getting that news, and she's passed at this point. I truly feel like a burden to society, my partner and I've already wanted to complete our pact after Christmas which was our agreement but she keeps pushing the date. I think she knows as well she'd live a better life without me. IDK what I'm trying to say, I guess the things I want to say to my partner but it hurts her too much to hear.
have you considered breaking up with her and then CTB ?
 
sash

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Time for an honest conversation.
 
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infinitefears

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have you considered breaking up with her and then CTB ?
I did recklessly tell her I considered that before... I don't know if she'd legitimately think I'd want to break up with her without that being my lone motivation. She knows me well enough. I think she'd feel betrayed that I didn't want to complete the pact with her...
 
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locked*n*loaded

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Don't try to talk anyone into ctb, even if it is your partner. It's entirely unethical. Let them get to that place (ctb) on their own terms. If they want to join you, fine. If not, that's fine, too. Afterall, it is their life.
 
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regardless of them having a pact together doesn't give the op (or anyone) the right to talk their partner into ctb. also, if she doesn't want to ctb anymore then why should she be talked into taking her life, it's HER choice to make that decision
 
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reaasd11

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regardless of them having a pact together doesn't give the op (or anyone) the right to talk their partner into ctb. also, if she doesn't want to ctb anymore then why should she be talked into taking her life, it's HER choice to make that decision
sorry
 
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I see that it's your first day here, and maybe you heard from some news site or video that were some cult that encourages people to die, but that is not true. We do not encourage ANYONE to kill themselves. Nor do we tell people to encourage others to do so. We are pro-choice, we accept people's own personal decision on their own right to live or die. Encouragement or coercion of any kind is not what we do here. It is your choice as an adult to make that decision for yourself, it is never, ever anyone's right to make that decision for someone else.
 
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Death is my goal

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one of the many reasons why "suicide pact" is dumb, no idea how is it a thing
 
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hopeless08

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My partner and I have a suicide pact. Lately, I've been feeling like her depression is mostly a result of my mental illness and I'm just dragging her down. I feel like she could be happy without me. I want to go without her. I love her and I want her to be happy, and I feel like I'm an obstacle to her happiness. I wanted to die after my mom passed - I couldn't bear the thought of her getting that news, and she's passed at this point. I truly feel like a burden to society, my partner and I've already wanted to complete our pact after Christmas which was our agreement but she keeps pushing the date. I think she knows as well she'd live a better life without me. IDK what I'm trying to say, I guess the things I want to say to my partner but it hurts her too much to hear.
I'm in a very similar situation it's beyond complicated.If you want to read my thread, I made a suicide pact with my sister and really regret it.
 
Begotten

Begotten

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May 8, 2024
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As many people here said, it should be only HER choice.

That's just not fair, you need to make things clear with this girl
 

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