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infinitefears
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- Apr 16, 2024
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My partner and I have a suicide pact. Lately, I've been feeling like her depression is mostly a result of my mental illness and I'm just dragging her down. I feel like she could be happy without me. I want to go without her. I love her and I want her to be happy, and I feel like I'm an obstacle to her happiness. I wanted to die after my mom passed - I couldn't bear the thought of her getting that news, and she's passed at this point. I truly feel like a burden to society, my partner and I've already wanted to complete our pact after Christmas which was our agreement but she keeps pushing the date. I think she knows as well she'd live a better life without me. IDK what I'm trying to say, I guess the things I want to say to my partner but it hurts her too much to hear.