Help overwhelmed. help getting started on working out logistics?

[kittypanova]

sorry for posting a second time, wanted to do a personal vent post and have a separate thread dedicated to planning/problem solving. i promise i will not be flooding the forum.

it looks like there's tons of useful information here, but it's *a lot* and i'm easily overwhelmed, having trouble sorting through it all and finding what's helpful/relevant to me specifically. can anyone help me with navigating the resources here and breaking everything i need to do down to manageable parts?

some things i want to start thinking about:

- methods that are effective, relatively peaceful, and accessible/affordable (i work part time on a minimum wage income)
- killing myself "ethically"/in a way that minimizes trauma to loved ones and strangers??? is there even a way to go about this? i don't want my mom or my step father to discover my body and have thought about getting a motel or something to kill myself in but i'm not in love with the idea of a stranger discovering my corpse either, but maybe the trauma inflicted on someone who doesn't know me would be less. i'm not sure.
- planning for the aftermath - do i write notes? scheduled texts? should i even be bothered with a will? i don't really have much at all to my name and don't much care what happens to any of it. i guess whatever small amount of money i have left in my bank account i would want to go to my sister.
- fear of death/SI? i really don't know how to move past this, it's been a major sticking point in past plans to end things and any advice/resources on this subject would really help. i suspect it's going to be a long, slow process for me.
- if there are any end of life considerations i'm not thinking about, please point them out to me.

want to try and get this lazy bulleted list to a nice, comprehensive checklist if i can, with lots of small concrete steps. any advice/resources are greatly appreciated!! <3

 

[kotonearisato]

It's so easy to feel overwhelmed, especially with something so personal and with so many different aspects. Regardless of what you choose to do, I hope you're able to find peace.

I can't answer all your bullet points, but here's a few:
- re on being ethical, it's something I've thought about a lot too. There's no good way around the fact that someone will have to discover you. I personally feel that a method where I am not noticeably injured would be easier to process. Ie if some hotel worker walked in and saw me on the bed looking like I was just asleep or something.
- re aftermath, you can look up your areas specific laws on wills. Some states do not qualify notes as legally binding, others do, for example. If your area does, great, no need to bother with legal bs, can just write what you want to go where. As far as personal notes and scheduled letters, that's a really personal decision and nobody can tell you if you should or shouldn't. There are many email services that allow scheduled sending, and I think GMail does it as well, so if that's the route you decide to take it won't be difficult to set up. I guess by best advice is just think about what you yourself would want, if someone were to leave you, and go from there.
- and finally re other things you may be missing: do you want your loved ones to have things to remember you by, or memories you'd like them to have before you go? Photos or videos, or videos for certain milestones that you won't see? Are there bucket list-type things that would not normally be feasible due to the constraints of having to live a normal life, that may suddenly now be accessible? Ie travel before you CTB, since you'll no longer have to worry about future finances. Do you know what you'd like your funeral to look like if applicable, or if you'd rather be cremated or buried or whatever else?

As I said earlier, regardless of your decisions I hope you find the peace you're looking for. Also, have to shout out to a fellow TCOAAL fan :)