Outtie By Thirty?

[LoifisStrange]

So, hi everyone. I've been on this site before, I think my last post was a year ago. Everything seemed to be going well, I got a new job, made some friends, at 27 I still live with my mom because the housing industry SUCKS. But all of a sudden the thoughts came back and now I'm in a constant state of thinking about dying, or how everyone woiuld get on if I just disappeared... But anyway, random rambling aside I think I want to be out of this world by thirty? I've thought about ways of doing it. Maybe a hotel room with SN. Or overdosing on something, not sure what. I'm a furry and recently I've been playing a furry visual novel that involved a kid drowning (not on his own accord, he was killed by a friend) but I had the thought of drowning myself. I mean, I can't swim worth a damn so I certainly wouldn't be able to save myself I don't think. It'd be perfect, right? Anything where I won't traumatize anyone when they find me... I don't want that burden on anyone but at the same time I don't want to be in this world until I'm old and wrinkly. Anyhow, yeah... Thats all I have to say for the moment this New Year night.