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neoyokio
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- Oct 16, 2022
- 36
I'm currently working on my application to Pegasos and any companionship is much welcomed, I feel alone. It's slow going because I can only write a little a day and it will take time to find my documents. If anyone is curious about the process you can message me, and/or I can try to post updates along the process in this thread. I have a non-terminal illness, chronic Lyme/mold toxicity, resulting in chronic pain and other symptoms, including depression. I'm 36. I suspect they will want to interview me thoroughly due to my "young" age and that I have depression and I'm really nervous about that process. Please message me if you share similar concerns and would like to chat.
I'm also really struggling with managing a new doctor who doesn't know me but I have to have to not go into medication withdrawal. He is very gung-go go get 'em type and it's very painful to deal with as I can't be honest with him about being done. I really can't change doctors and it's their job to be positive and try to help you so that wouldn't solve anything. No doctor is going to be supportive of a non terminal patient going to Pegasos or ctbing in any way, obv. Every time I talk with him I experience such severe emotional anguish because I can't tell him the truth and he won't shut up about sleep hygiene or whatever lifestyle thing I should be doing or other doctors I should be seeing. He doesn't understand he's making me want to ctb 100x faster. idk if anyone can relate I feel so alone in this too.
I'm also really struggling with managing a new doctor who doesn't know me but I have to have to not go into medication withdrawal. He is very gung-go go get 'em type and it's very painful to deal with as I can't be honest with him about being done. I really can't change doctors and it's their job to be positive and try to help you so that wouldn't solve anything. No doctor is going to be supportive of a non terminal patient going to Pegasos or ctbing in any way, obv. Every time I talk with him I experience such severe emotional anguish because I can't tell him the truth and he won't shut up about sleep hygiene or whatever lifestyle thing I should be doing or other doctors I should be seeing. He doesn't understand he's making me want to ctb 100x faster. idk if anyone can relate I feel so alone in this too.
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