So I am still waiting anxiously for this item to arrive. I made mistake of telling counsellor and he was all concerned because of impulsive decisions spare of the moment kind of thing. So brother knows and wants to dispose of it make sure it's disposed of. I am planning on making a recording of me burning it to send to him, but in reality I am planning on just burning the package it comes in, show on the recording the front of the envelope to show its international item and show it being burned in recording, when in reality I will still have my SN. Mental health services were patronising telling me I'm doing well, when and accusing me of missing Dr appoontments they are bloody awful! Ones that I told, was the whole you don't want that because of impulsive, you have a purpose etc... but they don't understand how I feel, how I hate myself, my life, rejection, stress of life. Should I not have a peaceful way of going out instead of impulsively doing something that will cause me great pain. I really wish I said nothing, felt very overwhelmed after it on Monday. Atleast I am kind of covered in case the item is seized by police and customs, but my solicitor thought since the company wanted proof I was over 21, even if it was seized I wouldn't get in trouble. Will be content when it finally comes. I see it's still sitting in Canada yet