Ordered SN. Scared and relieved at the same time

[flowersforalgernon:]

I've finally done it, I ordered SN. I plan to do it shortly after it arrives, whenever that is. My brain doesn't work like it used to so if anyone has any advice around this method please let me know. It's my worse fear I'll have some kind of freakout over the pain.

Part of me is horrified that it's come to this but the fact is that there is no getting better for me. In a manner of speaking, I'm already dead. I wish there was a way to articulate my suicidal ideation without feeling cliché, but oh well.

 

[eternalflame]

Best of luck. I can olny guide you to the sn threads.

 

[Area Man]

I would be intrested to know how you aqquired SN without it being intercepted or blocked and if you feel comfortable, which country are you in? A;sp hpw revealing was the packaging? Did they make it look obvious?

 

[keitaro]

i hope everything goes smoothly so you can leave in peace.
here is the sn guide:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

 

[rationaltake]

Have you sorted an anti-emetic?

 

[FuneralCry]

It is sad how life drives people to this point and I know that it is hard to carry on when you suffer. I hope that you find relief from your situation. Best wishes.

 

[london3]

I've finally done it, I ordered SN. I plan to do it shortly after it arrives, whenever that is. My brain doesn't work like it used to so if anyone has any advice around this method please let me know. It's my worse fear I'll have some kind of freakout over the pain.

Part of me is horrified that it's come to this but the fact is that there is no getting better for me. In a manner of speaking, I'm already dead. I wish there was a way to articulate my suicidal ideation without feeling cliché, but oh well.

I hope you feel better soon and am sending you hugs, wish you a peaceful journey no matter what you ultimately decide.

I would be intrested to know how you aqquired SN without it being intercepted or blocked and if you feel comfortable, which country are you in? A;sp hpw revealing was the packaging? Did they make it look obvious?

SN is legal in most countries. SN normally comes in a foil pouch or plastic bottle depending on the source. It normally comes in a small cardboard box and is not suspicious really. Police could be watching this post that is why it is against rules to describe labels or specific manufacturers etc

 

[flowersforalgernon:]

Have you sorted an anti-emetic?

No, I'm kind of in a complicated situation because my parents are very watchful over me and they see my post. I don't know if I should just order it and hope for the best, tho from what I've read even if I do throw up I'll probably die anyway

 

[Worndown]

Being scared is normal whenever we start something serious. I hope having it gives you some peace. If you decide to use it, please read up and follow the advice and avoid any problems. I hope all goes well for you.

 

[Lollypop24]

Will it still be peaceful and effective if I take SN with no other drugs?

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Will it still be peaceful and effective if I take SN with no other drugs?

I want to know too
Can someone please help me to find sn?

 

[Lollypop24]

I want to know too
Can someone please help me to find sn?

I'll pm you

 

[HerculePoirot]

Will it still be peaceful and effective if I take SN with no other drugs?

Effective probably yes, peaceful maybe not, as you will have to fight strongly against your stomach to avoid vomiting.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

I'll pm you

Thank you so much

 

[Lollypop24]

Effective probably yes, peaceful maybe not, as you will have to fight strongly against your stomach to avoid vomiting.

I can deal with that, but will it take longer to fall asleep/pass out if I just take SN with no help from sleepers/benzos? And what type of pain will I experience? Will I feel like I'm choking/can't breathe? Or will I pass out before that. And can you feel your blood changing? Weird question I know

 

[makethepainstop]

Oh no. I had someone ask me,(private chat) if I got my sn from a certain place.....they quoted the weight it was packaged. I responded with could be. Did I make an error. Or is this just don't post a source in our forums? Need to know.

 

[HerculePoirot]

I can deal with that, but will it take longer to fall asleep/pass out if I just take SN with no help from sleepers/benzos? And what type of pain will I experience? Will I feel like I'm choking/can't breathe? Or will I pass out before that. And can you feel your blood changing? Weird question I know

I'm not an expert, so please read Stan's guide. Nevertheless, if you are strong enough to keep the poison inside for about ten minutes despite the need for vomiting it, I think you'll make it: you will pass out. Once unconscious, no pain at all and no need to struggle, you will be dead without effort within about 60 minutes or less.

 

[ojinzo]

I'm sorry you feel this way. It's funny, things start to become more real from the point of ordering it, receiving it, and inevitably taking it. I just hope your journey leads to where you want to be. Being frightened is natural as I'm scared as well ( mine arrived yesterday). However, I've learned in this life that fear dictates so many of my actions and I refuse to have it dictate my last action. Wishing you well whether you live long or ctb.

 

[blue_muse]

I can deal with that, but will it take longer to fall asleep/pass out if I just take SN with no help from sleepers/benzos? And what type of pain will I experience? Will I feel like I'm choking/can't breathe? Or will I pass out before that. And can you feel your blood changing? Weird question I know

From what I've seen and read from a different thread; sleepers/benzos are complimentary.

 

[On Replay]

Oh no. I had someone ask me,(private chat) if I got my sn from a certain place.....they quoted the weight it was packaged. I responded with could be. Did I make an error. Or is this just don't post a source in our forums? Need to know.

Just don't post in forums.

 

[Lost Magic]

Try and get benzos and/or propranolol to help with anxiety and survival instinct. I would also recommend an anti-emetic because there is a high vomiting risk with this method.

 

[Lollypop24]

If I was to take tonight as my partner is sleeping, would my attempt wake him up? Or could it be loud enough to disturb him
How much pain will I feel before I lose consciousness?

 

[HerculePoirot]

If I was to take tonight as my partner is sleeping, would my attempt wake him up? Or could it be loud enough to disturb him
How much pain will I feel before I lose consciousness?

As far as I know, no real pain, just (very) uncomfortable for not more than ten minutes. No idea about your partner's sleep, but as a matter of principle the you'd be better if you catch the bus alone.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Can someone please please please help me to buy it? I just want to die

 

[hopelessgirl]

Congratulations in ordering it. <3 it's my method too. I have had it since last Christmas

 

[ever so lonely]

well if your no ready there is no need to go through with it just yet op, weigh up the pros and cons and see how you feel closer to the time, there is no shame in playing the waiting game, as suicide will always be an option with access to sn, hope this helps in any way, but think on it some more, it will be the final decision any of us has to make ever again, and there is no shame in having second thoughts or weighing it up, as it will always be an option, but if you want to back out you can also, love and blessings to you in whatever you decide to opt for

 

[brokensea]

You're much more likely to fail or be discovered if you do this with someone in the home. Not to mention how traumatizing it is for the person who finds you. I can see if someone wants revenge and was abused by a person not caring but if you care at all it's not cool to do that to someone. It will make things more traumatizing and can cause PTSD more than just getting over your death.

 

[akirat9]

well if your no ready there is no need to go through with it just yet op, weigh up the pros and cons and see how you feel closer to the time, there is no shame in playing the waiting game, as suicide will always be an option with access to sn, hope this helps in any way, but think on it some more, it will be the final decision any of us has to make ever again, and there is no shame in having second thoughts or weighing it up, as it will always be an option, but if you want to back out you can also, love and blessings to you in whatever you decide to opt for

but do so = prolonged pain.
it torture