Method Ordered SN :), Feeling euphoric

[kurisutinabestgirl]

Heya fellas, I've got a little bit intoxicated and finally ordered SN. It makes me feel so fucking happy for some reason. It feels good man.
Hopefully it's going to be quality SN.
Also, I don't have a set ctb date, I just ordered the SN to prepare. It feels so sad yet so extasic. Feel free to share your feelings when you also finally figured out your end.

 

[Jenjoh2358]

What brand of Sodium Nitrite (SN) did you buy, @kurisutinabestgirl?

 

[kurisutinabestgirl]

What brand of Sodium Nitrite (SN) did you buy, @kurisutinabestgirl?

It's something I bought in my home country from a local chemistry shop, I don't think it can be compared.

 

[Jenjoh2358]

It's something I bought in my home country from a local chemistry shop, I don't think it can be compared.

Oh, chemistry shop nice

 

[kurisutinabestgirl]

Oh, chemistry shop nice

I don't know the english name for it XDD sorry, but you get it, basically, they sell stuff that are usually sold for chemist work purposes

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand it must be a relief as you can exit this world at a time of your choosing. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[kurisutinabestgirl]

I understand it must be a relief as you can exit this world at a time of your choosing. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

Heya, you explained it very well :)

 

[Manaaja]

I'm happy for you! I hope it's of good quality! It's nice to be able to choose your time so there's no "I have to do it right now" feeling of urgency. You can do it today or push it back by two weeks or several months.

 

[kurisutinabestgirl]

I'm happy for you! I hope it's of good quality! It's nice to be able to choose your time so there's no "I have to do it right now" feeling of urgency. You can do it today or push it back by two weeks or several months.

Yeah, I hope it's good quality, it was literally the only shop selling the stuff in my country.
The control of my own death (even if somehow I get better later and decide not to do it) feels so nice. It gives such a huge amount of security.
Thank you for your kind words :)!

 

[BeautifulMosaics]

Oh I was so happy when I first ordered my SN. I was singing Work by Iggy Azealia (don't ask why idk lol). It also felt like things were getting very real, I almost didn't and still don't believe myself about being suicidal, whether I'll do it, so taking each step towards ctb is definitely a surreal moment for me. Felt even more surreal when I was holding it in my hands (even though I knew at the time I wasn't gonna do anything). xx

I'm happy for you - I know that euphoric feeling

 

[Midgardsorm]

I also feel secure with my SN close to me. Ironic isn't it?

I have everything here including a mini scale and a syringe for the correct amount of water.
Fail proof. I know myself, SI won't be a problem.

You have the other meds? Depending where you live you can get it without prescription on the drugstore.

 

[blueclover_.]

I also feel secure with my SN close to me. Ironic isn't it?

I have everything here including a mini scale and a syringe for the correct amount of water.
Fail proof. I know myself, SI won't be a problem.

You have the other meds? Depending where you live you can get it without prescription on the drugstore.

Can you just inject SN to the bloodstream like that? Wow, less chance of vomiting then.

 

[Midgardsorm]

Can you just inject SN to the bloodstream like that? Wow, less chance of vomiting then.

Nonononono ^^

Sorry

The syringe is just for the correct amount of water.

You can't inject SN because it's not designed to be injected. It will burn and cause a lot of pain.

Also you can't inject water into the vein, it will need to be sodium chloride and this might react with sodium nitrite.