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difficvltmachineryy

difficvltmachineryy

Szomorú vasárnap, száz fehér virággal 𔓘
May 9, 2026
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First, putting a vodka-soaked tampon in my 🐱, then injecting vodka into my rectum with a plastic syringe. After that i take some antiemetics so i won't throw up from vodka, cause i then take an entire pack of SSRIs (dont know what kind of SSRI yet, as im still not prescribed any, but soon i most likely will get prescribed SSRIs) with a small amount of vodka, then the rest with water. Would that work? What other medicines are recommended? Do i need to add something else for this method to work out? Any insight is appreciated
 
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unluckysadness

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Meds OD is not recommended. And I don't think it's a good idea to put something in your private parts (it's not even effective). The doctor who will do the autopsy of your corpse will just laugh and take pics for his colleagues (sad but true). You'll need to find something else. I hope you'll find peace whatever you decide 🕊️

 
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I think this may just be the most unhinged post I've ever come across on this site. 💀
 
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difficvltmachineryy

difficvltmachineryy

Szomorú vasárnap, száz fehér virággal 𔓘
May 9, 2026
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Meds OD is not recommended. And I don't think it's a good idea to put something in your private parts (it's not even effective). The doctor who will do the autopsy of your corpse will just laugh and take pics for his colleagues (sad but true). You'll need to find something else. I hope you'll find peace whatever you decide 🕊️

Damn :(( what methods would be good, then? I am afraid of violent ones, and i cant tie a rope no matter what. But i still think i might give this method i described a try, idk...
I think this may just be the most unhinged post I've ever come across on this site. 💀
Well, i am desperate and currently this seems like the most possible, most accessible method for me, haha
 
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FrustratedMTFtrans

FrustratedMTFtrans

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Apr 17, 2026
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dufficvktmachinery wrote:

First, putting a vodka-soaked tampon in my 🐱, then injecting vodka into my rectum with a plastic syringe. After that i take some antiemetics so i won't throw up from vodka, cause i then take an entire pack of SSRIs (dont know what kind of SSRI yet, as im still not prescribed any, but soon i most likely will get prescribed SSRIs) with a small amount of vodka, then the rest with water. Would that work? What other medicines are recommended? Do i need to add something else for this method to work out? Any insight is appreciated
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You shouldn't vomit if you drink a small amount of vodka just to swallow the SSRI pills, as the rest of the vodka enters your bloodstream via the two other routes without going via your stomach. I just read "SSRIs have been linked to thoughts of suicide in children and young adults under 25", so I think you welcome that effect. There has been a fatal overdose of one person for example who ingested 4000mg of Celexa (citalopram) and it has apparently been used for a lot of suicides. So you can work out how many pills that means when you get that or a similar SSRI medicine. Hopefully, a full pack will suffice, especially with the vodka boost.

I understand your determination to get it done, so it's important to know the fatal dose level to ensure it works when you do it.
 
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difficvltmachineryy

difficvltmachineryy

Szomorú vasárnap, száz fehér virággal 𔓘
May 9, 2026
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dufficvktmachinery wrote:

First, putting a vodka-soaked tampon in my 🐱, then injecting vodka into my rectum with a plastic syringe. After that i take some antiemetics so i won't throw up from vodka, cause i then take an entire pack of SSRIs (dont know what kind of SSRI yet, as im still not prescribed any, but soon i most likely will get prescribed SSRIs) with a small amount of vodka, then the rest with water. Would that work? What other medicines are recommended? Do i need to add something else for this method to work out? Any insight is appreciated
++++++

You shouldn't vomit if you drink a small amount of vodka just to swallow the SSRI pills, as the rest of the vodka enters your bloodstream via the two other routes without going via your stomach. I just read "SSRIs have been linked to thoughts of suicide in children and young adults under 25", so I think you welcome that effect. There has been a fatal overdose of one person for example who ingested 4000mg of Celexa (citalopram) and it has apparently been used for a lot of suicides. So you can work out how many pills that means when you get that or a similar SSRI medicine. Hopefully, a full pack will suffice, especially with the vodka boost.

I understand your determination to get it done, so it's important to know the fatal dose level to ensure it works when you do it.
So, i should swallow only the first few pills of SSRI with vodka, the rest of that i can swallow with water, right? And i do hope a full pack will suffice. We'll see, i'll post another thread when/if i get an SSRI prescribed
 

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