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LostHope556

LostHope556

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You guys ever want to just go on one last trip?

Go to Colombia, the Phillipines, Vietnam, wherever, just somewhere new

Party, do all the drugs, hookup, whatever, just live it up, live like a rockstar. Charge up those damn credit cards. Take out a loan if necessary, fuck the banks.

Then at the end of those few glorious months, do what needs to be done?

If I'm going to go out, why the fuck go out all bummed out in my apartment, right?

I wanted the exciting lifestyle. I thought I could create it sustainably, turns out maybe I can't.

Fine, but I sure as fuck will make it before I CTB.

Just a fantasy so far, but anyone else think like this?
 
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Novaaa

Novaaa

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I'm thinking the same. Looking hotels in Acapulco and other beaches.
 
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LostHope556

LostHope556

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I'm thinking the same. Looking hotels in Acapulco and other beaches.
Hell yeah, that's what I'm talking about. Depending on the amount of credit you have access to, why not make it a mini fucking world tour? I mean, right?

Shit, that would almost be worth it for me to go work for another year, just to save up for a perma vacation lol
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
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Yes and no, I would like to go visit some beautiful exotic location, but that's also where I'd like to die. For me, it would not be living it up, but using any money to go see the natural beauty of this world. I would love to find a waterfall hidden in a forest somewhere and make my resting place under a nearby tree.
 
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Novaaa

Novaaa

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Hell yeah, that's what I'm talking about. Depending on the amount of credit you have access to, why not make it a mini fucking world tour? I mean, right?

Shit, that would almost be worth it for me to go work for another year, just to save up for a perma vacation lol
I haven't money for that xD. I live in Mexico city and there are a lot of great places in the country I want to visit before leave. But I was thinking chose one.
 
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ma0

How did I get here?
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The one place I've always wanted to go to is Japan. Rich culture, futuristic cities, not to mention the food n' shit. If I could, I'd spend my last month or two exploring there.

Sadly, travel prices are a thing, so it will never be anything more than a mere pipe dream.
 
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LostHope556

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I haven't money for that xD. I live in Mexico city and there are a lot of great places in the country I want to visit before leave. But I was thinking chose one.
Money is a real bitch in the world we live in. Any chance you could get a loan? I mean if we're going to ctb anyways, why not scam the system a bit? 😜
 
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Romanticize

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when you're severely depressed (like me), nothing, and I mean NOTHING gives you fun. Even If I had a billion dollars, and all the drugs and girls in the world.

Still no point in it. No change in CTB decision.
 
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Novaaa

Novaaa

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May 4, 2025
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El dinero es un verdadero fastidio en el mundo en que vivimos. ¿Hay alguna posibilidad de que consigas un préstamo? O sea, si vamos a hacer la CTB de todas formas, ¿por qué no estafar un poco al sistema?😜
I started with my first credit card the last year. That's because I thought I was going to buy a house with my "boyfriend," but in the end, nothing's going to happen. I don't have much credit. I know how you feel about you enjoy nothing, it's anhedonia, I have it too. Part of one of my jobs it's go to party and maybe I can you feel a little better, lol. México is magic people say.
 
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when you're severely depressed (like me), nothing, and I mean NOTHING gives you fun. Even If I had a billion dollars, and all the drugs and girls in the world.

Still no point in it. No change in CTB decision.
That's heavy and I hear you. Sending you care 🫂
 
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Griever

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I don't have the money to travel one last time, so I'm just rotting in my bed
 
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LostHope556

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I started with my first credit card the last year. That's because I thought I was going to buy a house with my "boyfriend," but in the end, nothing's going to happen. I don't have much credit. I know how you feel about you enjoy nothing, it's anhedonia, I have it too. Part of one of my jobs it's go to party and maybe I can you feel a little better, lol. México is magic people say.
Hey I didn't know SS auto translated, that's pretty cool.
Your job is to go to parties? That sounds kinda cool. I've never been to Mexico actually. Honduras, Peru, Colombia and Costa Rica, but not Mexico.

Sorry about what happened with your "boyfriend", you guys are broken up I'm guessing?
 
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AnimusLapsus

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Apr 14, 2025
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All I've ever dreamed of is to travel the world. To traverse the rocky regions and towering cityscapes, the arid desserts and humid oases. To dine in a three-legged plastic chair at a hole-in-the-wall hut where humanity meets dignity in languages foreign to the ear but familiar to the heart. Where food is just as powerful a commodity as love. Without the expansion of crystallized knowledge through exploration, one's sense of self will always feel premature. The most distant corners of the earth are sometimes the most humane, and I will always grieve the loss of leaving them undiscovered and unexplored. I know that my soul will only ever be as big as that which I have truly seen, my mind only as big as what my heart has truly felt. Unfortunately, its span will amount to these four walls entrapped in this lukewarm body, a prison of mind and cage of ambition. One can still dream, anyway.
 
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Wishbone

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I don't want to accidentally make myself want to live by having too much fun at that point.

I prefer to keep trying to live as much as I can now, before fully deciding to go. The more i do that the more i see how it doesnt help anyway and even if i enjoy things in life like making memories, eating good food, and sex i dont enjoy the bigger picture of life itself. I have to make peace with it gently and do the things I wanted to, like traveling, before I can fully make the decision to leave.

Once I'm sure and ready, we'll then it's just time to do it.
 
The Actual Devil

The Actual Devil

I Go By Many Names: Can You Say 10?
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All I've ever dreamed of is to travel the world. To traverse the rocky regions and towering cityscapes, the arid desserts and humid oases. To dine in a three-legged plastic chair at a hole-in-the-wall hut where humanity meets dignity in languages foreign to the ear but familiar to the heart. Where food is just as powerful a commodity as love. Without the expansion of crystallized knowledge through exploration, one's sense of self will always feel premature. The most distant corners of the earth are sometimes the most humane, and I will always grieve the loss of leaving them undiscovered and unexplored. I know that my soul will only ever be as big as that which I have truly seen, my mind only as big as what my heart has truly felt. Unfortunately, its span will amount to these four walls entrapped in this lukewarm body, a prison of mind and cage of ambition. One can still dream, anyway.
That is a beautiful dream. I hope you can find the key to your cage very soon; brute-force your way out if you have to. A good poet can hold in their palm naught but a grain of sand and imagine a desert or a beach. What, then, could you learn from the beach itself?
 
bankai

bankai

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Aw man, I read a joke about this one. So the guy planned to kill himself at the end of 30 days. He took out loans, banged hookers, did cocaine. Enjoyed himself, gambled in Vegas, stayed in the best suites. At the end of 30 days, he didn't want to die anymore.....


But now you have to cause those loans aren't going to pay themselves.
The one place I've always wanted to go to is Japan. Rich culture, futuristic cities, not to mention the food n' shit. If I could, I'd spend my last month or two exploring there.

Sadly, travel prices are a thing, so it will never be anything more than a mere pipe dream.
Same . Japan is a good place to visit.Not too sure about the people though. They live in a very conformist, reserved society. Lot of rules and regulations. And from what I have seen, they can be a bit racist as well.That being said, Tokyo has the most Michelin starred restaurants in the world. Food is excellent. Anime culture is good. Places are beautiful there. There's a Fox Island, Rabbit island, crazy shit.I plan to pet some animals there hopefully.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
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Something more simple really. I'd like to see some beautiful natural landscapes before I die. I suppose it's the cost and effort of getting to the really spectacular ones that puts me off. So, smaller scale would be fine. I doubt I'll leave the UK again before I die. I'd like to eat some nice food too.

Sometimes I start to wonder if that even matters now though, to be honest. Will it be worth it? Has it been in the past? I'm just so lazy now.
 
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Aw man, I read a joke about this one. So the guy planned to kill himself at the end of 30 days. He took out loans, banged hookers, did cocaine. Enjoyed himself, gambled in Vegas, stayed in the best suites. At the end of 30 days, he didn't want to die anymore.....


But now you have to cause those loans aren't going to pay themselves.

Same . Japan is a good place to visit.Not too sure about the people though. They live in a very conformist, reserved society. Lot of rules and regulations. And from what I have seen, they can be a bit racist as well.That being said, Tokyo has the most Michelin starred restaurants in the world. Food is excellent. Anime culture is good. Places are beautiful there. There's a Fox Island, Rabbit island, crazy shit.I plan to pet some animals there hopefully.
reminds me of the movie "looper"
 
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Apathy79

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I like the idea. Mine would be more like Forever Sleep's though than partying, drugs and hook ups. But each to their own. You'll be living thats for sure, I wonder for some of us if we've never really done that.
 
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The Actual Devil

I Go By Many Names: Can You Say 10?
May 4, 2025
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Not too sure about the people though. They live in a very conformist, reserved society. Lot of rules and regulations. And from what I have seen, they can be a bit racist as well.
It's my understanding that for the racist people there, the 'reserved' part cancels out the 'racist' part. Like, how would you know they're thinking racist thoughts if they act just as introverted to you as anyone else? Also, I've heard the racism only kicks in if they find out you're trying to live there for multiple years, marry one of them, or immigrate. It's all just anecdotal, though, but in any case, your basic tourist or nomadic traveler is treated well and sent along without issue.
My goal for this year is to secure a work-from-home gig. I'd love to become a digital nomad and travel the world. CTB as a retirement plan after spending every paycheck living life. (I'll save some, sure, for emergencies, I'm just being a little hyperbolic.)
 
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