Venting One day I won't swim back up.

[Anxi0usandDepressed]

I just genuinely don't have the strength to pull myself out of this hole, and I don't know if I ever will. It's all consuming, all encompassing. The attempts at staying afloat are exhausting and futile, I always end up sinking right back down to the bottom eventually. Then it's back to square one, trying to muster up energy I don't have to slowly swim back up. It's so tempting to just let myself drown in it, and I do, for weeks at times, for months. I feel that one day, I won't try to swim back up ever again.