rikamonie
Experienced
- Jun 3, 2020
- 290
all of this back and forth nonsense is making me lose it, all of this messing around, being lead on by my ex only for it to be blown up in my face again, being unblocked and blocked repeatedly for weeks is making me suffer horrendously but i cant bring myself to block her that would be digging my own early grave but her doing this to me constantly is going to push me over the edge, i was already planning to CTB in the end since i knew it wont work but this just makes me sure that i want to do it as soon as possible, i cant keep going through this agony of being blocked for no reason and lead on by "i miss *whatever*" and "will we ever meet again" and "i wanted to talk to you" bullshit. its all bullshit. because why the hell am i blocked again for no reason suddenly if she wanted to talk to me so much, asking if we r going to meet again as if its my decision? it makes me feel so awful and even more lost than i already am
im sorry for the rant, i just really needed to get my feelings out in words instead of in my head
im sorry for the rant, i just really needed to get my feelings out in words instead of in my head