Discussion On my way to the spot

[lpdsvm]

So sorry.
Life sucks more and more each time I read such posts.

 

[fluorescentpearl]

I should do it tomorrow, at this point I can't do it today
God I miss him so bad why did he leave me

 

[Ben 111]

I should do it tomorrow, at this point I can't do it today
God I miss him so bad why did he leave me

So sorry, hope you don't mind me asking but did he also end it himself

 

[fluorescentpearl]

So sorry, hope you don't mind me asking but did he also end it himself

He didn't, he left me over a thing that I've recently found out wasn't even true, after telling me we'd be together forever, I just really want to end it, I can't be with someone who isn't him and I can't even contact him to let him know it wasn't true, I lost my one only person and have no one to talk to anymore, it feels pathetic

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

He didn't, he left me over a thing that I've recently found out wasn't even true, after telling me we'd be together forever, I just really want to end it, I can't be with someone who isn't him and I can't even contact him to let him know it wasn't true, I lost my one only person and have no one to talk to anymore, it feels pathetic

There is no one only person, especially not at 21. The world is full of people for you to meet. You're barely out of your teens, you have a lifetime of love still ahead of you. The universe said no, it's given you one sign after the other. Today is not your day to CTB.

 

[FF777]

girl PLEASE wait a little bit longer.. this isn't going to be a warm fuzzy post but i'm trying to save you from the worst decision you are about to make in your life.. you JUST broke up with this dude that doesn't even want to talk to you any more and you are running around like a chicken with its head cut off trying to find any random thing you can to CTB on..

if this isn't an irrational and impulsive CTB then i don't know what is.. you need to relax and calm down and think about some things.. the trains and buildings will still be there a week from now, or even a month from now.. they aren't going any where.. there really isn't any reason to not just think about things a little more and give your thoughts some breathing room for a bit.. i mean look at your self from an outside perspective for a second.. don't you think you are being a little rash?..

every one on planet earth goes through tough breakups where they thought they were with the best most amazing person on the planet, but that's just called life.. do you know how ultra rare it is that some one ends up sticking with their first lover (or a lover at such a young age) for literally the rest of their life??.. it is SUPER RARE and usually NEVER HAPPENS.. so of course there was a high probability this was eventually going to happen with a relationship that started at such a young age like you are at.. you can't just go CTB over it.. you have tons of potential left in this life, and it isn't your time to go yet.. how many more signs do you need from the universe?.. do you need one from me too?.. IT IS NOT YOUR TIME YET.. CALM DOWN AND RELAX FOR A BIT..

 

[fluorescentpearl]

girl PLEASE wait a little bit longer.. this isn't going to be a warm fuzzy post but i'm trying to save you from the worst decision you are about to make in your life.. you JUST broke up with this dude that doesn't even want to talk to you any more and you are running around like a chicken with its head cut off trying to find any random thing you can to CTB on..

if this isn't an irrational and impulsive CTB then i don't know what is.. you need to relax and calm down and think about some things.. the trains and buildings will still be there a week from now, or even a month from now.. they aren't going any where.. there really isn't any reason to not just think about things a little more and give your thoughts some breathing room for a bit.. i mean look at your self from an outside perspective for a second.. don't you think you are being a little rash?..

every one on planet earth goes through tough breakups where they thought they were with the best most amazing person on the planet, but that's just called life.. do you know how ultra rare it is that some one ends up sticking with their first lover (or a lover at such a young age) for literally the rest of their life??.. it is SUPER RARE and usually NEVER HAPPENS.. so of course there was a high probability this was eventually going to happen with a relationship that started at such a young age like you are at.. you can't just go CTB over it.. you have tons of potential left in this life, and it isn't your time to go yet.. how many more signs do you need from the universe?.. do you need one from me too?.. IT IS NOT YOUR TIME YET.. CALM DOWN AND RELAX FOR A BIT..

I am calm genuinely, and he isn't my only reason regardless
And also I keep posting here because I don't have anyone else, I have no friends to talk to and nothing to do, so I guess its noticeable when I post here that often

 

[Ashu]

Some people have tried to influence fluorescentpearl on this thread in a way that is strictly illegal on this site. Here, no one tells anyone to live or to die.

 

[fluorescentpearl]

Some people have tried to influence fluorescentpearl on this thread in a way that is strictly illegal on this site. Here, no one tells anyone to live or to die.

Thank you..

 

[aspenjrojas]

why are there so many pro-lifers in these replies? i respect your decision to die, even if the reason seems invalid to others. that's your choice and it's so stupid all these people are trying to convince you otherwise, that's not how it should work here on this site unless there is a genuine good reason one should try. i say as long as you are calm leading up to and during it, and not being overly emotional or not thinking rationally, you are valid in it. whatever you choose, good luck.

 

[MessyNonsense]

I find it... "interesting" feels like too callous a word, but it's an accurate one nonetheless---at my own impulse to tell you not to kill yourself, as many here have done. It's an urge i experience it a lot when reading people's posts on this site, despite logically knowing i shouldn't since i don't know you people and for all i know you have perfectly legit reasons to ctb. And if someone told me not to kill myself, i'd be like "wtf? fuck you, you don't how hopeless my situation is". Yet i fidn myself feeling the urge to tell y'all not to do it. Idk why, maybe it's because, due to a person in my life being a researcher on these exact topics, i have a lot of knowledge on healing that hasn't reached the mainstream yet so i feel like i can teach you people something maybe you don't know. Or maybe the reason is just social programming from living in a pro-life society. But take your case, for example. I mean you seem to understand that a breakup isn't reason enough to ctb on it's own, and you've said that it's not the only reason, that there's other reasons and it's just that this was the final breaking point. Yet i find myself feeling the urge to tell you not to do it. I won't say that because i realize i don't know anything about your situation and it's not my buisiness what decisions you make and this site is for supporting each other, so that's what i'll do, I'll say i respect your autonomy to make this decision and i hope you find peace in whatever form is meant for you. And i mean that, for what it's worth.

If i may, may i ask what it is that's the other stuff going on in your life that's your reason for feeling like you should ctb?

 

[fluorescentpearl]

why are there so many pro-lifers in these replies? i respect your decision to die, even if the reason seems invalid to others. that's your choice and it's so stupid all these people are trying to convince you otherwise, that's not how it should work here on this site unless there is a genuine good reason one should try. i say as long as you are calm leading up to and during it, and not being overly emotional or not thinking rationally, you are valid in it. whatever you choose, good luck.

Thank you.. I did get emotional, but why wouldn't I if my one hope and method was so suddenly shattered? I feel like anyone would freak out if their plan was ruined last moment, at least I know I did freak out.. The feeling of control leaving my hands and having to live one more day in this suffering alone was too much and I was willing to jump under a train just to end it all..