On Bipolar Meds Several Years too Late

[Lost in a Dream]

I decided to give recovery one last try, since I'm finally on the right meds. The only problem is, I got them about 10 years too late, since I've been a mess for a very long time, even since long before I discovered this forum. I don't feel like I want to die yet after all, but sometimes I'm still suicidal. I don't know what the right thing is for me, but I can only take it one day at a time I suppose. I may end up back in the Suicide Discussion forum again at some point, but for now, I'm giving myself some time to get used to these meds.

It still feels like too little too late though, and I have my doubts that recovery is even possible for someone like me. Still, it can't hurt to try. Death will always be there for me, so if I change my mind again, I can exit if I need. For now, I'm thinking about activism for the right to die, because I still think it should be a human right.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

It is hard to feel hopeful even if you find the appropriate treatment if it happens so late after so much damage has already been done but I really hope this leads to something.