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Lifeless mindset

Lifeless mindset

See you on the other side
Oct 20, 2020
308
I'm really curious to hear your guys answers
 
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DIWhyNoDO

DIWhyNoDO

Dead Inside So Why Not Be Dead Outside
Sep 28, 2021
6
I am mainly afraid to fail to « quit ».
So I'd said 1 for a successfull suicide.
Attempting suicide may even be exciting.
 
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Lifeless mindset

Lifeless mindset

See you on the other side
Oct 20, 2020
308
I am mainly afraid to fail to « quit ».
So I'd said 1 for a successfull suicide.
Attempting suicide may even be exciting.
Same here
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,821
3.
 
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Anxieyote

Anxieyote

Sobriety over everything else • 31 • Midwest
Mar 24, 2021
444
When I am in ideation mode, probably a 2. It sounds like the best option in those moments, and it doesn't scare me. I've only stopped myself due to SI and knowing that it's permanent.

Otherwise, around a 7-8. I know my life on earth really, really sucks, but I fear a lot of things relating to suicide. If my soul is reincarnated into something else, I have no control of what body I will be in or if my existence will be even worse than it is now. And I also can't grapple with being nothing for god knows how many years. It is a difficult concept to wrap my head around.
 
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Chockles

Experienced
Sep 17, 2021
270
Failure scares me.
The sooner I die the better I am sufferring so much physically & now emotionally.
I live for N to arrive
 
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ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
20,561
I'll go a 5, right down the middle.

Im not scared of death itself, im scared of how painful committing suicide will be and god forbid, failing.
 
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Chisel

Chisel

My dreams where I live. My life is my nightmares
Sep 27, 2021
63
I would say I'm a 1. Ive had enough of the hurt in this life and unfortunately for me things are only going to get worse.
Having that tiny little bit of control over when and how is all I have left.
 
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Thingsneverchange

Death is my friend
Sep 23, 2021
110
If it's about jumping or something I get scared of the height and of being paralyzed after doing it or failing alltogether. I'd say a 2
 
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Apricity

Apricity

Wizard
Jul 27, 2021
642
I'm gonna go with a 6. I'm not so much afraid of death, but failure. Even more afraid of dying thinking my wife doesn't love me and it not being true. What if, that same day, she realizes she still wants to stay married and have all the good stuff that goes along with it? That's what I'm most afraid of, my main reason being invalid.
 
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Un-

Un-

I'm a failure. An absolute waste. A LOSEr.
Apr 6, 2021
652
0. I don't care how painful my suicide will be, I hate living. I want to be nothing. Living is exhausting for no benefit.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,838
Suicide is difficult as we are programmed to survive. If it was easier I would have already been gone. The main thing that scares me is failing an attempt and being left in a worse quality of life. That is my worst nightmare so in that aspect it would be a 10. Apart from that, maybe a 5 for the dying process as I naturally want to avoid pain and discomfort and I wish I could just disappear and not experience dying. However I would push through pain if it means I can be free from this world. Of course I am not afraid of death itself, it brings great comfort to me, the thought of not existing. It is the thing I want the most.
 
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Hurt

Paragon
Nov 13, 2020
905
It depends on the method. If it's too painful or not. Train or jumping scares me more than hanging.
 
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xrafinha

xrafinha

Member
Mar 29, 2021
87
Everyone who's alive has a fear of 10/10, otherwise they woudn't be here. Saying "death doesn't scare me" is super easy considering you are alive. In reality, death is the one of the most scareful thing a human can face, along with a terminal desiese.

People will do about anything to say alive, including lying to theselfs that they will kill themselfs at some point. Of course they are exceptions, but:

"very few fishs will slip through the net of survival instinct" (readed it in here somewhere)
 
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TheHatedOne

TheHatedOne

Death is salvation
Sep 26, 2021
2,028
11 because I'm weak pathetic loser.
 
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Tamz

Student
Sep 1, 2021
116
I think I veer between 3 and 4 most times... SI is shit.
 
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Risperdead

Risperdead

Agenda 2030 Sustainable Death
Jul 20, 2021
49
11 because I'm weak pathetic loser.
this is true for me , too. but i had several failed attempt, some of them were very painful, so i am more loser than you. keep your head up sir! by the way your signature great. no blame for get out early
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
10 there is no turning back
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

Illuminati
Sep 9, 2018
3,027
10 too. Not the idea of being dead, just the attempt.
 
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TheHatedOne

TheHatedOne

Death is salvation
Sep 26, 2021
2,028
this is true for me , too. but i had several failed attempt, some of them were very painful, so i am more loser than you. keep your head up sir! by the way your signature great. no blame for get out early
I wish you keep your head up too! You're not a loser for failing, it's really difficult to commit suicide because all methods are complicated and painful.

I recommend you and everyone watch Doug Stanhope. He's a stand up comedian, more of a philosopher IMO who says so many truths about life and the world we live in.
 
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Mashedout

Mashedout

Student
Nov 25, 2020
126
10. Death could be anything, no one knows what happens. The imagination can conjure some truely horrific scenarios.
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

Enlightened
Mar 13, 2020
1,619
I'm right there around a 10.... Even though my method should " maybe " help ease my mind... A gun to my head still scares the ever living Fck outta me honestly.
 
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moths

moths

Member
Mar 7, 2021
51
probably like a 5. my biggest fear is failing and ending up with severe brain damage, not being able to communicate but being conscious, kept alive by machines… but sometimes i go through phases where its closer to an 8 or 9 because im terrified im going to hell, like the universe is giving me signs i should kill myself as a test to see if i'll fall for it and if i do im going directly to the worst torment and suffering you could imagine. but deep down i dont believe that, im not sure whether i believe in an afterlife or just nothingness but if there is an afterlife realistically i imagine itll be at the very least more peaceful than this world.
 
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SleepDealer

SleepDealer

Your Imaginary Friend
Aug 13, 2021
138
I'm not scared of suicide. I'm scared of my survival instincts interfering or getting caught, but not death itself. Although, I suppose there is a part of me that's afraid of the momentary discomfort and whatever comes afterwards, so maybe a 2, assuming 1 is no fear at all.
 
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wannabesetfree

wannabesetfree

I'm tired.
Feb 26, 2019
52
1. I'm not afraid at all and am just ready to go. Peacefully and painlessly. There is absolutely nothing I look forward to other than death. I'm just mad because society makes it so hard to go in a painless, dignified way and I really don't want to go a more violent route.
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
2,473
10
 
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Flippy

Flippy

Felis Sapien
Jan 5, 2020
931
It's in my nature to completely analyse things to the point I feel I completely understand something upside down and back to front.

This is useful for fixing cars, or electrical things or various projects, not that I do much of any of those things in recent times.

Sadly this analysis of CTB doesn't allay my fears that it will go wrong or be painful and distressing. So my current fear level is about 7 out of 10. Sometimes it goes to a 3 or 4, but right now 7.

People sometimes make the dumb mistake of conflating fear with a lack of motivation. It must be nice to be them and not be me, or someone like me. "It must be ever so relaxing." ;-)
probably like a 5. my biggest fear is failing and ending up with severe brain damage, not being able to communicate but being conscious, kept alive by machines… but sometimes i go through phases where its closer to an 8 or 9 because im terrified im going to hell, like the universe is giving me signs i should kill myself as a test to see if i'll fall for it and if i do im going directly to the worst torment and suffering you could imagine. but deep down i dont believe that, im not sure whether i believe in an afterlife or just nothingness but if there is an afterlife realistically i imagine itll be at the very least more peaceful than this world.
Yeah, I have the fear at times that I would end up in a state where I can't communicate too :-( I think I'm more afraid of that than actually dying :-|
 
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AnotherTragicName

AnotherTragicName

Member
Sep 10, 2021
83
8, unfortunately. Sometimes more, sometimes less. But I wouldnt be here after all these years if it wouldnt be a thing for me.
 
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