Off my meds, severe autism symptoms are back. It makes sense now.

[HeckingHecked]

The funny thing is that, since going off my meds, I'm far less miserable and able to actually enjoy fun things like video games. The bad part is that now that my autism symptoms/anxiety aren't being masked by meds, people treat me like shit as the default. For example, today I was at music practice, and I was looking over at the instructor, but this girl in front of me thought I was staring at her. In the past, it's gotten to the point where people have told me to kill myself over misunderstandings like this; like it's happened over a hundred times. I'm just shit with eye contact. So, now, I have far higher SI, but more of a reason for CTB. Gotta love it.

 

[Snake of Eden]

Im better off meds. Due to things like you mentioned above I stay in my room most of the time to avoid shit like that

 

[HeckingHecked]

Im better off meds. Due to things like you mentioned above I stay in my room most of the time to avoid shit like that

I'm in a musical, and I have to see people for school and therapy as well :(

 

[meetapple]

This sort of thing makes death seem like paradise. Why are people so ignorant?

 

[Dot]

The funny thing is that, since going off my meds, I'm far less miserable and able to actually enjoy fun things like video games. The bad part is that now that my autism symptoms/anxiety aren't being masked by meds, people treat me like shit as the default. For example, today I was at music practice, and I was looking over at the instructor, but this girl in front of me thought I was staring at her. In the past, it's gotten to the point where people have told me to kill myself over misunderstandings like this; like it's happened over a hundred times. I'm just shit with eye contact. So, now, I have far higher SI, but more of a reason for CTB. Gotta love it.

Y wld ppl tll u 2 kll urslf. Thts horrble..

 

[HeckingHecked]

This sort of thing makes death seem like paradise. Why are people so ignorant?

Yeah. Tbh, my problems are entirely external. I personally don't want to die. Dying doesn't sounds amazing to me. That being said, if everyone around me who treated me like shit, or will potentially in the future CTB, I couldn't complain. Like, I know that it's not only unrealistic to say that, but someone could misinterpret that as me wishing suffering on others; I don't at this current moment. I just want them to stop inflicting suffering onto me. My sister told me that I'm better off dead if I drop out of highschool last night, despite me being 18, and having more of a hypothetical, solid plan for my future than she ever did. If I could Red Button all existence, believe me; I would. I'm at the point where if my suicide causes chaos and hurt to the people around me, I'm 100% okay with it. It's like that post said: Suicide isn't a thing. It's just Manslaughter.

 

[FuneralCry]

People can be cruel for no good reason. It is why I choose to stay away from others. No one should have to be treated like that. I wish you the best.

 

[HeckingHecked]

People can be cruel for no good reason. It is why I choose to stay away from others. No one should have to be treated like that. I wish you the best.

Yeah. It's so fucked tbh. Thank you.