Of course this had to happen.

[AveryConure]

My mom decided to quit her job and is mainly just going to stay at home and sell things online like she used to do back in her older days.

Honestly I'd be fine with this if I wasn't planning on her eventually going back to work and succeeding with hanging myself, but now she's barely going to leave the house.

Now I feel like I have to fuck up everything I have in my life next year so I can finally get some goddamn balls and just kill myself via cop or by train but knowing how my luck has been lately it probably won't work or just somehow lead me to digging a deeper hole than before.

If I hear more evidence of the night night method working for people, I'm honestly going to save up some money from my fry cook job and just lock my bedroom door and just do it whether she's here or not. I really want to kill myself next year because I know there's very little anyone can do for me at this point and I know I don't really have much of a future, especially with how the US is going to be burned to the ground very soon anyways.

I'll have to look into SN possibly too. I just really didn't want to do it cause getting the right antiemetics seemed really expensive and difficult and hearing about what happens to people after they die from it just sounds really unpleasant to me.

 

[Deleted member 4040]

Just do it when she leaves the house for shopping?

 

[AveryConure]

Just do it when she leaves the house for shopping?

she has a habit of coming back 10 minutes later to pick up shit she forgot about so i don't even know how long she'll be gone anymore. at least long enough to successfully hang myself without her finding shit out and cutting the noose down and leaving me with brain damage.

 

[TiredHorse]

Sounds like using night-night after she has gone to bed would be your best bet.

 

[AveryConure]

Sounds like using night-night after she has gone to bed would be your best bet.

If I get any confirmation that the method works for sure I'm definitely going to have to invest in it. It's either that or suicide by cop or train and I really don't want to do any of those methods unless I'm seriously 100% out of options.

 

[TiredHorse]

Don't do suicide by cop. It's a shitty thing to do to the cop, and it makes their attitude worse for the rest of society. I don't have any special love for cops, but getting them spun up and tense makes life worse for everyone.

NN sounds like a good way to go, but user reviews from successful attempts are thin for any method.

 

[Slayer]

Get a hotel room and do SN.

 

[AveryConure]

Get a hotel room and do SN.

Right now I unfortunately can't invest in a hotel room and my friends and family might send out an amber alert.

I'm just so pissed off from knowing I'm never going to get any help for my dissociative disorders that I'm really thinking of treating everyone that cared about me like shit so I can ctb in peace. Unless they sonehow can pull a cure for DID from their ass I don't fucking care anymore.

 

[OkTotti]

How old are you?

 

[AveryConure]

How old are you?

28 or 29. Can't remember anymore.

 

[bigj75]

Sounds like using night-night after she has gone to bed would be your best bet.

Night night after she goes night night!

Im sorry yall i had to.

 

[AveryConure]

Still had some cash left over. Went and bought the cornhole bags and the ratchet strap. Even if I fail the first time I'm going to keep practicing until I'm finally gone. I'd rather burn out than fade away.