harlemriver
Member
- Sep 10, 2023
- 21
A while ago i promised myself to stop and try to be a better person for one month, see if I could help myself and others. Turns out some things just don't change, huh? I'm still a burden to everyone that knows me and I can't stand being here anymore. I've tried going out everyday, studying, working, saying kind words to others and to myself, taking my pills. But it didn't work. The toughts kept coming in. That month ends on october 14th, on 17 days for now. I know i'm not making it. It's time to go. So, i need help. I'm planing on dying from suffocation: i'll take 150mg quetiapine (sleeping pill), and quite a bit of alcohol, enough to get me calm, i'll tie 10 grocery store bags around my face while wearing a mask (to try to harden my breathing) and i'll try to tie down my arms. if that doesn't work, i'll try jumping. Any tips? Any other methods? I just need to go, please help me. I have lived with suicidal toughts since i remember, please let me find peace just this once.