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TracieB
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- Sep 1, 2018
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I know the rules but having read Stan's {?} guide it seems perhaps it's out of date or maybe Stan isn't in the UK as SN is definately not easy to come by here. It's really frustrating. There is an ad that comes up for various labs if you type in the search criteria of SN and 95% but the German one won't let u register; the green button just doesn't work. I have emailed them and they just keep saying their technicians are working on it.
I also wondered whether anyone else has felt the same as I do once they've made the decision? Every time I think about writig to the letters to my nearest and dearest I cry uncontrollably. I've pretty much been sleeping all day to try and escape but in the evening watching some mindless TV. I need to make sure the person Who is going to return my cat and see the big note on my bedroom door saying not to enter but to call police and ambulance has a lot of instructions re taking my cat back home and arranging with my Mum to take him home with her, things I want to leave to various people etc. It all feels like too much right now. During previous acute episodes of depression there comes a time that I get out of bed and just slowly start catching up with washing up etc but this time I don't have that because although I know I need to do something as mundane as the washing up everything else just seems pointless when I know I've made the decision I have.
As I am sure most of you know, you can't really talk to anyone about it because everyone just wants to keep you alive or call the emergency services to get you into hospital. It's so hard being alone and trying to summon the energy to do anything at all. At least if I had the SN I think I would share a lot of what other members here have and that is soem sense of relief as you know you finally have the method of checking out when you like so you're more in control. Any ideas, thoughts?
Thanks so much x
I also wondered whether anyone else has felt the same as I do once they've made the decision? Every time I think about writig to the letters to my nearest and dearest I cry uncontrollably. I've pretty much been sleeping all day to try and escape but in the evening watching some mindless TV. I need to make sure the person Who is going to return my cat and see the big note on my bedroom door saying not to enter but to call police and ambulance has a lot of instructions re taking my cat back home and arranging with my Mum to take him home with her, things I want to leave to various people etc. It all feels like too much right now. During previous acute episodes of depression there comes a time that I get out of bed and just slowly start catching up with washing up etc but this time I don't have that because although I know I need to do something as mundane as the washing up everything else just seems pointless when I know I've made the decision I have.
As I am sure most of you know, you can't really talk to anyone about it because everyone just wants to keep you alive or call the emergency services to get you into hospital. It's so hard being alone and trying to summon the energy to do anything at all. At least if I had the SN I think I would share a lot of what other members here have and that is soem sense of relief as you know you finally have the method of checking out when you like so you're more in control. Any ideas, thoughts?
Thanks so much x