Venting Obsession will kill me

[kunikuzushi]

I need to be dead soon. I can't take this betrayal. I can't take these obsessive thoughts. I can't stop thinking about someone every second of the day. I don't know if it's hate or love. This is how my life was always going to end.

how can desire hurt so much

I don't want to let you go


I've never felt regret until I lost you

if you can't love me please hate me instead
I'd rather haunt you in your dreams than mean nothing to you
isn't hate the same as love?
you can't get me off your mind
physical reactions to thinking about me
strong feelings
please
why can't you just hate me
i'm so sick of meaning nothing to you

I'll make sure you never forget me
love or hate
does it really matter?
I just want to feel you loving me or hating me so much
at this point it doesn't matter which
i just want you to think about me
relentlessly

i just want you to feel the way i feel about you. it must be love right? this is true love

 

[Is0lated]

I feel you tbh. I have BPD and it's quite impossible to let go of someone if they're not being clear wether or not they hate or love you.

 

[kunikuzushi]

I feel you tbh. I have BPD and it's quite impossible to let go of someone if they're not being clear wether or not they hate or love you.

Yeah just the BPD life. Sorry to hear you understand this feeling. It's hell. Sending you comfort