Nothing Feels Normal Anymore

[doomdoll]

i feel like i can't enjoy even things like sleeping or smoking anymore, which was something i could always rely on to numb it all out. i need to ctb and soon, i was trying to hold off for the holidays but fuck, why?

 

[outrider567]

I haven't felt anything close to normal for 22 months now

 

[user56765567]

It sucks that you're going through this too, like I thought out of all of them sleeping would be the one thing that would stay enjoyable for me but I guess not. I don't know why either maybe I feel bad for my family even though I despise and loathe their behavior towards me and my other sibling. Especially around the holidays, it can be an even harder question to find a answer for but it's a day by day thing for me I suppose at this point. Overcoming SI and gathering up the courage. Either way my heart goes out to you.

 

[SVEN]

I no longer know what 'normal' is.

 

[Ε. Η. R.]

It's terrible that you have to go through constant pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's certainly very much understandable wishing to be free from this existence that just causes suffering, existing truly is so dreadful. But anyway I wish you the best.