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PatheticRylee
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- Mar 24, 2020
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do you guys plan on writing a note to your friends or family when you CTB? Why or why not? I'm trying to get others POV on this topic :)
Idk im stuck in between the 2, I'll probably at the very least write a paragraph to my best friend she she has some sort of closure since she also struggles with depression and I want her to take it as well as possible, I wanna try to alleviate her blaming herself, etc. but to my mom, idk I haven't decided yet.No. Nothing to say to anyone. The person closest to me knows I struggle and have been doing so for many years. They'll know why I ctb. How about you? What are you leaning towards?
Idk im stuck in between the 2, I'll probably at the very least write a paragraph to my best friend she she has some sort of closure since she also struggles with depression and I want her to take it as well as possible, I wanna try to alleviate her blaming herself, etc. but to my mom, idk I haven't decided yet.
I'm sure your friend would be so grateful for that. If there was someone I felt close to I'd probably write a note for them. The people in my life should know some of the many reasons why I want to ctb, especially those who contributed to it. I do intend to leave one final message to help tie loose ends though since I don't have any assets that would require a will. May I ask why the hesitation regarding your mom?Idk im stuck in between the 2, I'll probably at the very least write a paragraph to my best friend she she has some sort of closure since she also struggles with depression and I want her to take it as well as possible, I wanna try to alleviate her blaming herself, etc. but to my mom, idk I haven't decided yet.
I don't really have a reason outside of just being unsure if its what i want to do tbhI'm sure your friend would be so grateful for that. If there was someone I felt close to I'd probably write a note for them. The people in my life should know some of the many reasons why I want to ctb, especially those who contributed to it. I do intend to leave one final message to help tie loose ends though since I don't have any assets that would require a will. May I ask why the hesitation regarding your mom?
I agree with this allot, I have my best friend who I know cares deeply for me and I hate that she's going to get hurt by my death, but I just can't hold on, not even for her :(I will leave notes. I feel a lot of guilt for going this way, I have people who truly love me and will be devastated. Hopefully my note will bring some comfort, alleviate their guilt. I will steer the blame towards the health care system who should have taken me seriously years ago, and the social services for not allowing me to live without heavy economic concerns for the rest of my life. That might turn some of their grief into anger towards the system instead.
True, my family don't understand me in life and I doubt they will understand in death. But at least I'll know I've tried to explain my point of view.I've always imagined that I would leave a note. I've written quite a few over the years. But at the same time I feel like it's pointless to write out a big explanation about how I feel. Nobody understood me while I was alive and even if I tried to spell it out for them, I don't think they would get it. I don't get it sometimes. So the note I think I'll leave is just a simple one saying it's not anybody's fault and just leave it at that.
Yeah I understand. It is fucked up imagining years of your loved ones never really knowing anything about why exactly you did it.True, my family don't understand me in life and I doubt they will understand in death. But at least I'll know I've tried to explain my point of view.
that' a quite interesting concept and is kinda a good idea, that would possibly help the person who finds you not be scarred for life if its a normal civilian or somethingI'm still writing a note. It's not going to be addressed to anyone specific, because I am very quiet about anything that goes on in my life except with people who I feel close to, and there have only been a few... All of which are gone now. My note is intended to be anonymous; I just want to explain to someone or anyone who finds it why I did it without them knowing who wrote it. It's going to be like a "Message in a bottle" that you see in movies and stories... Except it isn't anything cool like a treasure map just a nobody killing themself.