diphylleia_Grayi
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- Jul 17, 2021
- 7
Like said in the title, I'm not as terribly depressed as I was before, but I don't find much joy in life and I feel like my future is doomed because of it. I could change my life if I had the willpower but I don't, and I don't have the power to end it either. So I'm just here, bored out of my mind and feeling awful over how lazy and incompetent I am. I often wish I was at rock bottom so it would be easier for me to just go. There's also my mom that I don't wanna hurt, I wish I didn't care or could convince myself this would be better for her or that she wouldn't care about me dying.