- Jun 25, 2018
Apologies if this has been posted before but is there anyone who feels they were not meant for life? Like they were not supposed to be born or were a mistake. That's mainly the reason I want to ctb. I always felt I was a mistake. Ever since I was young, I was never comfortable around other people and struggled to fit in. I have no motivation or ambition and don't know what I want to be. My family hates me and my dad has openly admitted that he wishes I was never born and it would be better for my family if I died. They pushed me to go to university after high school even though I didn't want to. I had to drop out due to depression and social anxiety and move back in with them. Unfortunately, they don't believe in mental illness so they think I'm just being lazy. Everyday, they constantly nag at me to pick a course and go back to uni but I don't know what to do. I feel so lost and confused.