Not many options.........

[lost1]

Lately all I've been doing is sleeping alot, like 12-15 hours a day then I just lay in bed looking at the wall for hour's until i get up eat then I take my tablets and go back to sleep. I can't snap out.
I've been panicking and having bad anxiety heart pounding with hot flushes thinking methods. Feel so trapped....
Had a plan to take propranolol cocktail with benzos and my mind eased thinking finally my way out,
but my source for prop turned out to be a scam. Then considered sn but I have a very weak gag reflex and don't think it would work. Can't hang myself because I'm In A wheelchair and also the fear of just hanging there choking for a long time in pain scares me. I want it to be quick and relatively painless as possible but that's easier said than done there ain't many ways.
I've gone with a blood Choke method using a medical tourniquet I got from amazon and I've got 2 small sand bags from A weights vest im going to put either side of my neck on the cartoids.
now I've acquired everything I just sat on the bed looking at it for a hour thinking has it really come to this am I really going to go through with it and use this way, I thought I'd feel how I felt when I thought I'd sourced propranolol, I don't... I've got to plan it out properly when where etc I done a practice run and it will work im sure but again I'm left thinking about family and things I'm leaving behind...... It's so hard it really is I feel so selfish in one hand but lost and trapped In the other. I know one thing I can't go on Feeling how im feeling ill end up having a mental breakdown

 

[Hollowillow]

I feel you. I want to go due to pain, being in a wheelchair must be even harder... I can't figure out your method... I tried sitting on the floor with a satin belt from a bathrobe tied to a door knob. I might try passing the rope above the door & closing it. They wrote that if I put the rope right I'm not supposed to choke & pass out fast? I put it on top of my neck instead of the bottom.

I get those panicks too. I think it might be my hypoglycemia for losing the will to eat, reaction to chemicals (or tablets... What are they?) I rake extra vitamin c & magmesium. It prevent me from crying hysterically...

Can you get sn?

 

[lost1]

I feel you. I want to go due to pain, being in a wheelchair must be even harder... I can't figure out your method... I tried sitting on the floor with a satin belt from a bathrobe tied to a door knob. I might try passing the rope above the door & closing it. They wrote that if I put the rope right I'm not supposed to choke & pass out fast? I put it on top of my neck instead of the bottom.

I get those panicks too. I think it might be my hypoglycemia for losing the will to eat, reaction to chemicals (or tablets... What are they?) I rake extra vitamin c & magmesium. It prevent me from crying hysterically...

Can you get sn?

Hi I know its so tough sorry your here and gone through what you have... I hate them panic attacks too I get them more when I'm on my own no one to talk to and over thinking things.... maybe your right my appetite has been nil I really have to force myself to eat

Left with no other options I stumbled across the blood Choke/ night night.. used by marines and mma fighters but I never thought you could do it to yourself. Either side of your neck just benath your ears and the corner of your jaw you have 2 cartid atrerys. It's where you take your pulse on your Your neck, anyway I stumbled across a thread on how to do the blood choke using a tree rachet and corn sacks ( to fold up and put either side of your neck on carotid aterys under the strap). I sat on the sofa found where my pulse was either side of my neck pushed really hard with my fingers and after 5 seconds went really giddy and blurry with no pain so it works I think any longer I would have passed out.
Ive kind of improvised my own way using a " sam medical extremity tourniquet " it's black and orange amazon.co.uk .com should have it. it's got a velcro strap that you can pull really tight and a small metal bar you can twist to make tighter and it clips into a bit on the back. They used by paramedics to restrict blood flow if your bleeding out on your leg or arm. I was going to use the little sand bags on the atrerys under the strap so you don't get choked on your wind pipe you go unconscious from blood flow to the brain which the sand bags would push In to stopping blood flow.
I cN get Sn from Im even though I'm in the uk but tbh it scares me and I'm thinking of someone having to identify me after, it will be a picture they will never get out there mind don't think I could do it to my dad as it will be him I think

 

[brokensea]

You sound like you're in so much pain. So sorry what you're going through. If you're having doubts just give yourself time to think it all through and make peace with everything. You want to do this when you're sure. It's not something you can take back.

 

[Littlewittlelight]

Hi I know its so tough sorry your here and gone through what you have... I hate them panic attacks too I get them more when I'm on my own no one to talk to and over thinking things.... maybe your right my appetite has been nil I really have to force myself to eat

Left with no other options I stumbled across the blood Choke/ night night.. used by marines and mma fighters but I never thought you could do it to yourself. Either side of your neck just benath your ears and the corner of your jaw you have 2 cartid atrerys. It's where you take your pulse on your Your neck, anyway I stumbled across a thread on how to do the blood choke using a tree rachet and corn sacks ( to fold up and put either side of your neck on carotid aterys under the strap). I sat on the sofa found where my pulse was either side of my neck pushed really hard with my fingers and after 5 seconds went really giddy and blurry with no pain so it works I think any longer I would have passed out.
Ive kind of improvised my own way using a " sam medical extremity tourniquet " it's black and orange amazon.co.uk .com should have it. it's got a velcro strap that you can pull really tight and a small metal bar you can twist to make tighter and it clips into a bit on the back. They used by paramedics to restrict blood flow if your bleeding out on your leg or arm. I was going to use the little sand bags on the atrerys under the strap so you don't get choked on your wind pipe you go unconscious from blood flow to the brain which the sand bags would push In to stopping blood flow.
I cN get Sn from Im even though I'm in the uk but tbh it scares me and I'm thinking of someone having to identify me after, it will be a picture they will never get out there mind don't think I could do it to my dad as it will be him I think

Sorry that you are in pain. I am not disabled it must be so painful and to be unable to go away or make it less traumatic or you want it must hurt. I agree with the other person that if you could make peace with things it should help. You also said you could find and press the carotid arteries I really want to go can you please help me locate them and do it in a way it doesn't leave marks on my neck I have to go to college and I am young if I get marks from practising I would get caught and the unwanted attention. I am not just going to think here my carotid is and press I think I found them the pulse is strong above just beside my Adams apple and I have a very thin neck I would say I am underweight so I think it would be easier but I don't want to do something that leaves my neck hurt of something wrong and when I tried to press around the place near my Adam's apple it hurt me I felt I am doing something wrong so I didn't go with it. It hurts I know but how to know if it's wrong? I am sorry that i am asking for this you are already in so hard a position. I wouldn't mind if you couldn't reply and I will wait as long as needed but can someone help me? If I get marks on my neck I can't wear high neck or clothes that cover my neck so I am going to get caught or if I injure myself I already have migraine kinda of headaches. I don't know if I would deal alone. Sorry got too long and asked for much I wouldn't mind if you guys are unable to message but just say you could later?

 

[FuneralCry]

I know that it's so dreadful feeling like you are trapped. Existence can be extremely cruel and horrible, and to me it's understandable why so many people want to escape from this life. It really is so unfair how dying can be this difficult. Humans have already suffered enough without having to struggle in finding ways to leave.
I wish you freedom.

 

[Hope:-)]

I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. xxx