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1043169
I put the HOT in psychotic
- Jul 9, 2024
- 92
Yeah the title like 'if you're not going to CTB why are you here?'
Mid-30s, female, somewhat nice life. Owe money but who doesn't. Good job. Up for promotion. Advancing career.
Mentally ill but pretty stable? Bipolar but not actively depressed. I don't think.
Why am I here? Well, my thoughts swirl around with the dark thoughts. Stuff I've always been afraid to say out loud to anyone. The kind of stuff that gets you sectioned or investigated by the pigs.
I live with a sibling and parent. Two dogs. I've never dated. Never really had interest. Too weird and shy, and just not having the urge. I don't really care anymore.
I don't fear being alone when I'm old. Hell, I don't imagine myself BEING old. I never have. It's always been in the back of my mind that one day I'll CTB. One day, but not today.
I don't want to upset my mom or my sister. And my dogs wouldn't understand. I love them all too much. But once they are gone, like I said I don't picture myself being old or dying of old age.
Maybe I won't CTB until I'm 80. I just know one day I'll go looking for that bus stop.
Mid-30s, female, somewhat nice life. Owe money but who doesn't. Good job. Up for promotion. Advancing career.
Mentally ill but pretty stable? Bipolar but not actively depressed. I don't think.
Why am I here? Well, my thoughts swirl around with the dark thoughts. Stuff I've always been afraid to say out loud to anyone. The kind of stuff that gets you sectioned or investigated by the pigs.
I live with a sibling and parent. Two dogs. I've never dated. Never really had interest. Too weird and shy, and just not having the urge. I don't really care anymore.
I don't fear being alone when I'm old. Hell, I don't imagine myself BEING old. I never have. It's always been in the back of my mind that one day I'll CTB. One day, but not today.
I don't want to upset my mom or my sister. And my dogs wouldn't understand. I love them all too much. But once they are gone, like I said I don't picture myself being old or dying of old age.
Maybe I won't CTB until I'm 80. I just know one day I'll go looking for that bus stop.