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davana
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- Sep 28, 2020
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So I've been thinking about this. I have a debilitating illness, and I am mostly bed-bound. There is no treatment, but it's not lethal so I will be like this for many many years to come. People who were close to me have disappeared because it is too much of a burden to take care of me, my partner left me because of the stress of the illness. Yet, what those same people say is: "do not take your life, that's very selfish of you, don't you realize how much we will suffer?". So basically, they are saying that they don't care about me enough to take care of me but they care about me enough to keep me suffering lots of pain for the rest of my life. I feel it's selfish of them. Yet, it is true that I don't want to hurt anyone. I wish all the suffering just disappeared with me. Is the worry of hurting others stoping you? I wonder if there is a way to beg them to let me go without suffering... I doubt a final letter will help enough though...