Stan Swiftie
Devoted Eminem & Taylor Swift fan... Thus the name
- Apr 3, 2025
- 25
The simple fact of the matter is...
My forever alone & miserable pointless pathetic existence is not bad enough to end.
A year ago, I hit a downward spiral of the deepest depression I had ever dealt with... Facing turning 50 years old in January...
Alone & empty.
I was obsessed with it.
In August, I fell down a rabbit hole...
I got on Facebook & Instagram, looking for love
I found nothing but lying scamming pieces of shit
But I paid to keep them around for months because I felt loved, wanted, handsome, & special.
I paid them for their attention...
And for their lies.
And it ended the weekend before Christmas when I attempted suicide because the scammer I fell in love with didn't show up.
None of them ever showed up.
How could they?
They weren't real.
But I found the truth in their lies...
All I have in this life... Existence... is ME.
My parents love me...
They're the only ones who do.
But they don't understand .
And no one else loves me or understands.
No friends, no family, no s.o., not even God...
No one but ME!
I'm ALL I have!
And that is enough!
I just finished watching Cobra Kai...
And I LOVE that show!
There are a few TV shows & movies I love.
There is a lot of music I love.
And I love my parents, my bro, and my cats...
And I love myself!
And yes, even though He doesn't give a shit about me & never has, I love God!
So yeah...
I think I'll stick around a little longer.
My forever alone & miserable pointless pathetic existence is not bad enough to end.
A year ago, I hit a downward spiral of the deepest depression I had ever dealt with... Facing turning 50 years old in January...
Alone & empty.
I was obsessed with it.
In August, I fell down a rabbit hole...
I got on Facebook & Instagram, looking for love
I found nothing but lying scamming pieces of shit
But I paid to keep them around for months because I felt loved, wanted, handsome, & special.
I paid them for their attention...
And for their lies.
And it ended the weekend before Christmas when I attempted suicide because the scammer I fell in love with didn't show up.
None of them ever showed up.
How could they?
They weren't real.
But I found the truth in their lies...
All I have in this life... Existence... is ME.
My parents love me...
They're the only ones who do.
But they don't understand .
And no one else loves me or understands.
No friends, no family, no s.o., not even God...
No one but ME!
I'm ALL I have!
And that is enough!
I just finished watching Cobra Kai...
And I LOVE that show!
There are a few TV shows & movies I love.
There is a lot of music I love.
And I love my parents, my bro, and my cats...
And I love myself!
And yes, even though He doesn't give a shit about me & never has, I love God!
So yeah...
I think I'll stick around a little longer.
