Not a therapist but burying past trauma fucking hurts

[CatLove56]

Every once in a while I think of all the bullying I've endured and then me of course eventually believing all the hurtful things and being my own worst enemy. Sucks so bad being alone thinking I've never good enough for anyone and wanting to die all the time. It all bottles up and explodes at some point it's not good for anyone. Now what do we do about it? I don't know fucking know but trauma stays whether I want to acknowledge it or not and most of the time I won't.

 

[Ego Sum Medusa]

Every once in a while I think of all the bullying I've endured and then me of course eventually believing all the hurtful things and being my own worst enemy. Sucks so bad being alone thinking I've never good enough for anyone and wanting to die all the time. It all bottles up and explodes at some point it's not good for anyone. Now what do we do about it? I don't know fucking know but trauma stays whether I want to acknowledge it or not and most of the time I won't.

Well, you're talking about it; that's a good start. ♥

 

[ghost_]

I dont about you, but for me it really helped when I wrote it all down. I wrote down all the stuff that happened in high school and online and idk but it felt like it was leaving my brain as I wrote it. I still think about stuff from time to time but not as much as I used to. Maybe this could help you too? I wish you all the best

 

[eternalmelancholy]

I dont about you, but for me it really helped when I wrote it all down. I wrote down all the stuff that happened in high school and online and idk but it felt like it was leaving my brain as I wrote it. I still think about stuff from time to time but not as much as I used to. Maybe this could help you too? I wish you all the best

This is a great suggestion. When I started drafting out my suicide note I started to feel better. I think just putting thoughts into words relieves a lot of tension.

 

[albino_elk]

I think it will always hurt even if you already burried it. The key is to make peace with it and accept it as a agrowth process of life. When you let go the pain and the past the healing starts blooming. And there is no easy road for those things. Ressistance always hurts.. when you cant accept something itll eat you till you are dead or done with it . Ego is a fucked up thing,always trying to hold on to something thats dear bu.t everythings change and its hard to let it happen;V

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course memories last a lifetime as we can never forget. It can be painful being alive as there is no escape from ourselves. No one should have to go through bullying, people can be so cruel and awful. I wish you the best.

 

[LADY007]

I dont about you, but for me it really helped when I wrote it all down. I wrote down all the stuff that happened in high school and online and idk but it felt like it was leaving my brain as I wrote it. I still think about stuff from time to time but not as much as I used to. Maybe this could help you too? I wish you all the best

Good idea and see if you can find bullying support groups online.. You can make friends and help each other just as we are doing here.