Non stop intense dreaming everyday and nightmares for the past 5 years after the vaccine jab.

[liza]

Maybe Im not a lovable person and I deserve to die Im not meant to be here. I have self harm cuts all over my body. What do evil people want from me.? There's no other explanation for it I got the Pfizer jab

Can someone sue Pfizer for me "? I will love u with all my heart. Please sue them. I want justice I will love u forever.

They have been doing horrible things to me by adding heat to my face (boiling) effect they ruined the fat production in my face, they tried to kill me, scare me, the vaccine I'm convinced is targeting me and hurting me it's a bioweapon

Before Pfizer release announcement my Minecraft account was hacked. They changed the name to plizer-fond 1 month later Pfizer was announced.

I have been seeing closed eye hallucinations where I see a chat room. I also seen someone say "cute" like it popped in my head and it made me very uncomfortable. I don't like this. I feel ashamed. I want to die. Please someone

I'm exhausted with dreaming everyday. I will find a reliable method to kill myself with or hopefully find a partner to do it with

 

[anomic]

Please just take a deep breath. I know this is gonna sound very cliche and this reply is gonna sound ignorant but as someone who struggles with insanely intense OCD I can understand how bad the paranoia can get. I understand how confused and stressed you feel.

Our brains are very good at recognizing patterns, maybe even too good. When we get into bouts of immense stress our brains try to find some sort of explanation for everything that feels "wrong." I am not a doctor or medical professional by any means but there is certainly a lot of explanations to the phenomenons you're experiencing and I want to caution that I don't think they are linked.

The closed eye hallucinations may be a form of exhaustion. When the nervous system is in a state of "overdrive" your brain tends to lag. I think of it kinda like internet and a youtube video. Your eyes are constantly recording in a high resolution and refresh rate and when the internet is being overloaded by many different things the recording begins to lag leaving artifacts as your brain tries to fill in the spots it cant keep up with to the best of its ability. Your brain is trying to interpret as much as it can then it just makes up the rest as best as it can.

When you're in a heightened state, chemicals like glutamate or serotonin can dilute your visual senses. Glutamate increases the amount of signals and serotonin changes how you filter the symbols. When the amount is high and the filtering is low the brain literally starts to see your own structure where you can actually see the layout of neurons that are inside of your eyes. The reason you see geometric shapes and patterns is because the neurons are wired in a geometric manner.

I really recommend trying to use some grounding techniques to calm your nervous system. Also take deep breaths (and remember its about the slow breathing not necessarily the deep breathing).

I promise you are not unlovable and you have nothing to be ashamed of. I hope this response helped a bit I really poured my heart out into this ToT

If you need any help with distractions or anything my DMs are open :)

 

[liza]

Please just take a deep breath. I know this is gonna sound very cliche and this reply is gonna sound ignorant but as someone who struggles with insanely intense OCD I can understand how bad the paranoia can get. I understand how confused and stressed you feel.

Our brains are very good at recognizing patterns, maybe even too good. When we get into bouts of immense stress our brains try to find some sort of explanation for everything that feels "wrong." I am not a doctor or medical professional by any means but there is certainly a lot of explanations to the phenomenons you're experiencing and I want to caution that I don't think they are linked.

The closed eye hallucinations may be a form of exhaustion. When the nervous system is in a state of "overdrive" your brain tends to lag. I think of it kinda like internet and a youtube video. Your eyes are constantly recording in a high resolution and refresh rate and when the internet is being overloaded by many different things the recording begins to lag leaving artifacts as your brain tries to fill in the spots it cant keep up with to the best of its ability. Your brain is trying to interpret as much as it can then it just makes up the rest as best as it can.

When you're in a heightened state, chemicals like glutamate or serotonin can dilute your visual senses. Glutamate increases the amount of signals and serotonin changes how you filter the symbols. When the amount is high and the filtering is low the brain literally starts to see your own structure where you can actually see the layout of neurons that are inside of your eyes. The reason you see geometric shapes and patterns is because the neurons are wired in a geometric manner.

I really recommend trying to use some grounding techniques to calm your nervous system. Also take deep breaths (and remember its about the slow breathing not necessarily the deep breathing).

I promise you are not unlovable and you have nothing to be ashamed of. I hope this response helped a bit I really poured my heart out into this ToT

If you need any help with distractions or anything my DMs are open :)

You helped me out so much today and whatever you say I'll take it heart, thank you for comforting me. I will try some form of exercise, hopefully taking these lil steps will make a huge difference