Anonymoususer1234
Experienced
- Apr 13, 2023
- 216
For context: I am very sensitive to noise. I am suspected to be autistic but it's not diagnosed.
Noise is everywhere I go. Outside I'm bombarded with traffic noises.
In public Someone's always eating loudly or shouting over the phone or forcing thier kid, who's having a meltdown to stay in the store with them.
Even at home I can't get a break. The upstairs neighbors are always stomping around and moving furniture. Or it's my sister making noise, getting into a shouting match with whatever guy she's brought home this week.
If I ever dare to complain, I end up on the receiving end of oh so helpful unsolicited advice (/sarcasm).
People tell me just to wear headphones, which I do, but they're impractical in many situations and they hurt my ears after wearing them for a few hours.
Or they tell me to ignore the noise. Which. If that were possible I would already be doing it. But okay.
It really feels like there's no escape. Nowhere I can go that's guaranteed to be silent.
I know this is stupid but it really makes me want to CTB sometimes. I even cut myself over it. I know it's dumb but I really feel like I can't help it a lot of the time.
All I've ever wanted was a quiet place to go. But apparently even that's asking too much.
Noise is everywhere I go. Outside I'm bombarded with traffic noises.
In public Someone's always eating loudly or shouting over the phone or forcing thier kid, who's having a meltdown to stay in the store with them.
Even at home I can't get a break. The upstairs neighbors are always stomping around and moving furniture. Or it's my sister making noise, getting into a shouting match with whatever guy she's brought home this week.
If I ever dare to complain, I end up on the receiving end of oh so helpful unsolicited advice (/sarcasm).
People tell me just to wear headphones, which I do, but they're impractical in many situations and they hurt my ears after wearing them for a few hours.
Or they tell me to ignore the noise. Which. If that were possible I would already be doing it. But okay.
It really feels like there's no escape. Nowhere I can go that's guaranteed to be silent.
I know this is stupid but it really makes me want to CTB sometimes. I even cut myself over it. I know it's dumb but I really feel like I can't help it a lot of the time.
All I've ever wanted was a quiet place to go. But apparently even that's asking too much.