Nobody likes socially anxious people

[kosmischerunfall]

I just started a new job, and I could cry.
Nothing changed, my mother is still the same, she has no empathy with me for my anxious, self destructive self, i really want to kill myself.

Nobody supports me when im sad or down, i don't even know where to go with mh problems, i want to kill myself, but i'm so afraid, it won't work out.

 

[prettyclam]

Relatable, everytime I clock into work it makes the depression 10 times worse since people are especially cruel to anxious old me at my retail job. No matter how hard you try acting normal, it's like some people can see through it.

Hopefully commenting makes you feel a little better. Venting on here doesn't beat having someone right there, but I feel you, & I understand how it is despite probably being across the world. Just cried about the same thing last night, the reality of being alone with nobody to run to. It's a debilitating feeling

 

[k1m]

I get this, but also there's the upside that you don't really hurt people bc they don't care what you think. I used to be super anxious and obsessed with the idea that I was hurting people constantly so I tried to make up for it by over-the-top shows of affection. Now I realize none of them really noticed how I felt, the people I showered with love and kind words in high school didn't even gaf about me and were rude to my face (I have trouble reading social cues lmao). Whereas when you go about life confident and quiet, you realize years later that you really crushed this or that person and it stays with you forever. I really hurt a girl's feelings when we were little kids, probably made her feel worthless for years. That's way worse of a memory than all the times I fawned over mean people or got made fun of.

 

[WPack]

I'm sorry for your situation I'm a decently socially anxious myself to say the least, it hurts to see no one supporting you in person.

If i ever had the opportunity to make friends with someone the same, especially socially anxious, I would always love to be there for them!

 

[Ligottian]

Socially anxious, skinny, wore glasses, few friends, much less girlfriends Went through all of that when I was a youth. Also not in clubs or any sports. Welll....doesn't anyone envy me?