Toxic Positivity
At my own pace
- Feb 11, 2022
- 95
I am tired of finding reasons to continue. If I make a post explaining to my friends my reasoning, my method, my philosophy about life and suffering, about voluntarily exiting a situation (life) I did not consent to or ask for, then I will be involuntarily incarcerated for the purpose of my "betterment."
For someone like me, right now, involuntary, carceral psychiatry is tantamount to those "reeducation" camps they have for dissidents in Communist China. "Yes, I want to live, yes I'm hopeful, no I'm not a threat to myself or others." Repeat the mantra until you are deemed well. Stray from the script and they will try another medication, keep you a little bit longer for observation.
FUCK THIS SHIT. I want to be able to explain to everyone why I am done being here, show them where it hurts. How are the components of suicidality supposed to be addressed by a society that is only concerned with prevention insofar as the IMMEDIATE "threat" is concerned? The answer is despairingly that society does not care about suicide in any meaningful sense.
I am thinking about posting a goodbye thread and calling it quits. This shit is so exhausting. You literally cannot talk with anyone about it without having your freedom taken away. My freedom is more important than my life.
For someone like me, right now, involuntary, carceral psychiatry is tantamount to those "reeducation" camps they have for dissidents in Communist China. "Yes, I want to live, yes I'm hopeful, no I'm not a threat to myself or others." Repeat the mantra until you are deemed well. Stray from the script and they will try another medication, keep you a little bit longer for observation.
FUCK THIS SHIT. I want to be able to explain to everyone why I am done being here, show them where it hurts. How are the components of suicidality supposed to be addressed by a society that is only concerned with prevention insofar as the IMMEDIATE "threat" is concerned? The answer is despairingly that society does not care about suicide in any meaningful sense.
I am thinking about posting a goodbye thread and calling it quits. This shit is so exhausting. You literally cannot talk with anyone about it without having your freedom taken away. My freedom is more important than my life.