no sense of hope

[Snake of Eden]

i have absolutely zero sense of hope that things will get better or that I will get what I want. Strangely enough this has been the best I felt since I abandoned hope completely. I still desire these things but I convinced myself they are impossible to attain and I surrendered which feels really neutral. Being deprived and hopeless isnt all that bad after you get used to it. To think about it, if I had things I wanted then I would be anxious about retaining or losing them. It will be torture. Lacking in that sense isnt all that bad. I hope I continue feeling this way until Ctb takes me away from the teasing purgatory.

 

[FuneralCry]

I see hope as leading to more suffering when our delusional beliefs are shattered and we have to face the harsh reality of this life. I am glad that I have no more hope. In this life if there is something positive, it never lasts, so I believe it is better to never have it in the first place. Losing something just causes more pain. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[steviewonder]

Life feels strangely easier when you have nothing to lose.

 

[Snake of Eden]

Life feels strangely easier when you have nothing to lose.

It really does

 

[Justcheckingout]

I've been hopeless for a couple of years now. It does sort of make things easier in that you no longer quite care where you end up but it's also hurtful to the people around you when your mask slips and they get a glimpse of your total apathy.

 

[Before26]

i have absolutely zero sense of hope that things will get better or that I will get what I want. Strangely enough this has been the best I felt since I abandoned hope completely. I still desire these things but I convinced myself they are impossible to attain and I surrendered which feels really neutral. Being deprived and hopeless isnt all that bad after you get used to it. To think about it, if I had things I wanted then I would be anxious about retaining or losing them. It will be torture. Lacking in that sense isnt all that bad. I hope I continue feeling this way until Ctb takes me away from the teasing purgatory.

Maybe it's the lack of pressure that we place on ourselves to succeed. Maybe removing that pressure allows you to feel okay.

Maybe I'll try take a leaf out of your book my friend.