NO PURPOSE

[Silently Dying]

I'm fairly new to this site, but so grateful it is here. I can't discuss my feelings with anyone without them calling the cops or thinking I'm out of my mind. Thank you mods.

I am older than most on the site (after reading numerous chats). I've no family and no one close to me. At one time I had friends (or so I thought), but they turned out to be users who didn't care at all. I'm an empath which is a huge part of my problem. I care too much for people who are in pain (whether physical or emotional). I've been duped by so many liars I could write a book. I'm now at a point in my life where I hate everything. I've closed myself from everyone because of my fear of being hurt. Life is much easier this way. My time here is short. Just waiting on my final paycheck to pay for my funeral. My life has been nothing short of a shit show lol. I used to wake up and think positive - then some shit would happen. Now I'm at a point where I don't even know who I am anymore. I have no purpose and no desire to continue this shit show. If anyone reads this, thanks.

 

[elkheart]

Relate to almost everything you wrote. You are not alone in this feeling, and it's a terribly exhausting one. Much love to you

 

[Silently Dying]

Relate to almost everything you wrote. You are not alone in this feeling, and it's a terribly exhausting one. Much love to you

Thank you for the kind comment

 

[Halfhourdays]

I'm fairly new to this site, but so grateful it is here. I can't discuss my feelings with anyone without them calling the cops or thinking I'm out of my mind. Thank you mods.

I am older than most on the site (after reading numerous chats). I've no family and no one close to me. At one time I had friends (or so I thought), but they turned out to be users who didn't care at all. I'm an empath which is a huge part of my problem. I care too much for people who are in pain (whether physical or emotional). I've been duped by so many liars I could write a book. I'm now at a point in my life where I hate everything. I've closed myself from everyone because of my fear of being hurt. Life is much easier this way. My time here is short. Just waiting on my final paycheck to pay for my funeral. My life has been nothing short of a shit show lol. I used to wake up and think positive - then some shit would happen. Now I'm at a point where I don't even know who I am anymore. I have no purpose and no desire to continue this shit show. If anyone reads this, thanks.

Relatable. My life is shit, too. You aren't alone in feeling the way you do about life.

If you don't mind me asking, what's your story? Can you elaborate about your life, your friends, your career? What's an empath?

Anyway, welcome to SaSu. I hope you feel better.

 

[Silently Dying]

Relatable. My life is shit, too. You aren't alone in feeling the way you do about life.

If you don't mind me asking, what's your story? Can you elaborate about your life, your friends, your career? What's an empath?

Anyway, welcome to SaSu. I hope you feel better.

My story is really long. And I'm sure nobody is really interested. I feel very safe here saying what I need to say. I appreciate your response

 

[Hollowman]

Very relatable. I don't have a clue who I am anymore and no sense of purpose. It's definitely much easier this way.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I really relate. Not just out of unkindness either really. I've just found as we grow older, it's so much work to keep hold of friendships. As our lives diversify and friends start to have their own families, it's so easy to lose touch. Initially, it hurt that I was losing people I was close to but, it gets to a point where there's more numbness. Plus, a reluctance to make new friendships and go through the same pain. I find it's almost like keeping people at an arm's distance now to stay safe.

 

[Still here]

I relate to this as well... The sad thing is I've started feeling like this at an early age....Much love to you.....