Sometimes, I don't think parents like to admit it to themselves- or others how badly their children are struggling. I don't know- maybe they think it reflects badly on them. Or, are they just not particularly caring people? I'm sorry. Do you have any close friends you could confide in? People can be a bit funny with suicide though. For someone who hasn't considered it themselves- it may feel too much for them. To be honest, I haven't told anyone in years. I tend to only tell people if I get the impression that they have ideation also. Here is a good place to vent though- if you want to get some of your troubles out.