Help No One To Confide To

[Mebius]

I have no one to confide to. My parents would only call me a retard, ungrateful, failure (which i dont deny), and kept gaslighting me. I wish i was never born. If they didnt want such massive fucking problem, they couldve not have me, but no, even after one child, they want another, and they create the utter failure that is me. They yell at me, for not fitting their mold, but did i really ask to be brought to this hellhole?

I dont even know anymore. I dont feel anything anymore (and i really mean this, not in an annoying dramatic way), and I dont even know what the hell my life is.