No more treatment, no more procedures, and no more living.

[itsallover]

I have officially tried everything possible for my debilitating condition and am ready to go before the holidays get here. I hate my family and want them to be reminded of my death every time this part of the year gets here for the rest of their lives. I am going to leave a hateful suicide note of how they all had a hand in getting me sick to the point I was in a coma for a week a couple of years ago. I am no longer afraid of brain damage and have many different options living in a large city like heights, trains, and large vehicles on the highway. If anybody wants to join me in NYC I would be very grateful and can be there for each other to calm all the survival instinct. My dream is to walk over to a high bridge and fly for a few moments before the water crushes most of the bones in my body and destroys my organs to the point I can't be saved.

 

[Manaaja]

I hate my family too, so I know exactly what you mean. If I wrote a note, it would probably be hateful too.

I'm sorry your family is awful, I hope you can escape them and find freedom.

 

[itsallover]

I hate my family too, so I know exactly what you mean. If I wrote a note, it would probably be hateful too.

I'm sorry your family is awful, I hope you can escape them and find freedom.

Even if I go into assisted living which the state offered me then I still have to live in this diseased miserable body and mind.

 

[Manaaja]

Even if I go into assisted living which the state offered me then I still have to live in this diseased miserable body and mind.

I'm sorry, life can be really cruel.

I used to have a personal assistant but I still wanted to ctb.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is horrible being alive. Some people are just so awful, no one should be treated like that. It is perfectly understandable wanting to exit, as health conditions can torture us and make our lives a nightmare. I wish you the best with your plans, I hope you find peace and freedom from suffering.

 

[itsallover]

I'm sorry, life can be really cruel.

I used to have a personal assistant but I still wanted to ctb.

I had a good career too in social work and now I barely get by on disability and feel like a complete loser.

It really is horrible being alive. Some people are just so awful, no one should be treated like that. It is perfectly understandable wanting to exit, as health conditions can torture us and make our lives a nightmare. I wish you the best with your plans, I hope you find peace and freedom from suffering.

I don't know if this makes sense to you but when I was healthy all of people's bullshit used to roll right off me. Now I feel like I want to explode every time someone is rude to me which is basically all day in NYC.