darkenmydoorstep
Not Waving But Browned Off….
- Sep 27, 2023
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Love is such a curse when it doesn't work out.
Every night I cry for this man.
Every fucking night.
l can't work out if he's afraid of love, a so- called narcissist or just feels nothing for me.
Why did I have to get to know him, feel those intense feelings of connection? Why did he say the things he said to me? Why are humans so damn fickle?
I felt a 'love high' I'd not had in years. So fucking alive. I glowed and now I frazzle. Decomposing in futility and tears.
And I know he's sad and lonely too. That's the awful thing. He's bitter and resigned to living out his days alone, never being hurt again after previous experiences. He's told me all this.
It's all just so utterly depressing.
Every night I cry for this man.
Every fucking night.
l can't work out if he's afraid of love, a so- called narcissist or just feels nothing for me.
Why did I have to get to know him, feel those intense feelings of connection? Why did he say the things he said to me? Why are humans so damn fickle?
I felt a 'love high' I'd not had in years. So fucking alive. I glowed and now I frazzle. Decomposing in futility and tears.
And I know he's sad and lonely too. That's the awful thing. He's bitter and resigned to living out his days alone, never being hurt again after previous experiences. He's told me all this.
It's all just so utterly depressing.
