no interest in sex or mastrbating

[awfullife]

Do you guys get so depressed and want to CTB so bad that your sex drive is like nonexistent? Anyway that's when I know I'm getting bad. I'm considering doing an ayahuasca ceremony soon to see if I can find my demons.

For some weird reason I decided to quit smoking last Thursday. (2 packs a day) I'm a truck driver so it's been hard. Today was extreme sadness. Fuckin weird.

 

[LittleJem]

yes, it really affects that side of things for sure. The only thing that used to help me a bit was weed.
Definitely worth trying ayahuasca - the DMT has been seen to repair the brain...
Also worth trying anything that boosts dopamine. Wellbrutin is the med. you can look at Mucuna Pruriens or L-Theanine

 

[Ghost2211]

Yes, I have noticed my sex drive is very much dependent on my happiness level. Is a good indicator of how I am. A very unhealthy level of depressed is when sex drive is eliminated.

can't say I know much about ayahuasca ceremonies, but right on. Interesting you stopped smoking all of a sudden. Do you consider that a good or a bad thing?

 

[awfullife]

I think it's probably a good thing. Its 5k a year for 2 packs of smokes a day. Plus I wasn't getting any gratification out of them. I'm weird with addictions. I stopped drinking cold Turkey 7 years ago and havent drank since. Life went to shit after I stopped drinking. Wife said I had "changed" and divorced me. It sucks being only person at AA meeting who quit and lifes shit now.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

I stopped smoking 6 years ago and was also on 40 a day. I would never have been able to do it without the help of an ecig. 6 years down the line, I'm still not smoking, but I'm now addicted to vaping - I never have it out of my mouth! They are excellent though, worth a try if you're really struggling. Good luck.
Oh and the sex bit - I haven't had sex for 14 years and I don't miss it one bit.

 

[Futile]

On the contrary, I want to ctb precisely because I have no gf and sex

 

[sadworld]

Yeah, my sex drive is like non existent but I don't know if it's because of my depression or because of my antidepressants.

 

[StringPuppet]

I wish this was me, I've been addicted to porn since I was like 12 and I partly blame that for why I'm so fucked up

 

[x~Sophia~x]

I wish this was me, I've been addicted to porn since I was like 12 and I partly blame that for why I'm so fucked up

I think depression/mental illness can take us one way or the other... rarely a mediocre inbetween.

 

[SmellyRat]

Stress + Alcoholism + Pills probably ruining my hormones = no interest in any of it.

My grandmother probably has more energy then me ffs

 

[Astronomer]

Stress + Alcoholism + Pills probably ruining my hormones = no interest in any of it.

My grandmother probably has more energy then me ffs

 

[SmellyRat]

 

[LastFlowers]

Never had any interest and wouldn't want any. Regardless of my mood or circumstances. I do wish that society and relationships wouldn't revolve so much around sex..but tbh that's the least of my worries. Unfortunately my paramount concern is also something that society is equally-if not more-obsessed with.

 

[Marauder]

I cant relate

 

[Gnip]

For people I've known in relationship who experienced loss of sex drive from SSRIs or other antidepressants, switching to Wellbutrin (buproprion) was often the antidote (so much in some cases that it's actually been suggested as an aphrodisiac).

Compulsive masturbation itself in adolescents was cited as a sign of depression by the late sexologist and collaborator with Alfred Kinsley, Wardell Pomeroy (the author of "Boys and Sex" [1968] and "Girls and Sex" [1970], two books every parent of adolescent children should read before handing them over to their children to learn from - my mother obtained them and wisely read both, then handed them to my father to give to me, but my elementary school principal jackass father was too stupid and lazy to read them first himself, and they contradicted EVERYTHING he told me - teachers and psychologists make the worst, most stupid and abusive parents, along with Marine Corps servicemen like him).

After reading Pomeroy, I recognized by how much I masturbated how depressed I was or wasn't. The more depressed I was, the more I did it. When I originally went I Prozac, I didn't want to masturbate at all, and was very pleased about that. I knew the Prozac was wearing off and losing efficacy when I relapsed into those urges and behavior. (My fuckhead elementary school principal father just told me and my brothers to run cold water over ourselves or take cold showers, then juts forget about it. He also told us masturbation causes cancer and that erections were a warning from Jesus. Again, there's nothing on Earth more completely stupid than degrees, especially advanced degrees in education or psychology. A college degree truly is proof of lack of intelligence.)

 

[Metalhead]

Definitely can relate to this, anhedonia has robbed me of all feelings.

 

[SmellyRat]

(My fuckhead elementary school principal father just told me and my brothers to run cold water over ourselves or take cold showers, then juts forget about it. He also told us masturbation causes cancer and that erections were a warning from Jesus

WTF

 

[Gnip]

WTF

In recent decades, my father has admitted being a devout atheist, like ALL who preach the Bible, Koran or other religious doctrines without exception. (Let me put it another way. If you were to ask any pope, ayatollah, rabbi, priest, nun or minister on a hypothetical lie detector test if they believe in God, the test will prove that they are lying if they answer, "Yes," and telling the truth if they answer, "No." Not one of them believe in any divine being or hereafter.)

The bible was plagiarized from pagan sources and written by power seeking priests who were all atheists.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Yeah, my sex drive is like non existent but I don't know if it's because of my depression or because of my antidepressants.

Pretty much this for me as well. I was never overly sexual anyway, but I did enjoy it when I had it, now it's completely gone and I feel nothing towards the idea. I do wonder if it's the medication I take having this impact or just my overall emotions and feelings putting me off. Either way, I'm not too bothered by it and it doesn't factor much into my wanting to ctb.

 

[SuicideBoys93]

Kudos on stopping smoking. I actually thought about starting to get things rolling. If I can't consciously kill myself might as well get some help.

 

[Lupgevif]

Nope, my sex drive seems to be untouchable.

 

[demuic]

For people I've known in relationship who experienced loss of sex drive from SSRIs or other antidepressants, switching to Wellbutrin (buproprion) was often the antidote (so much in some cases that it's actually been suggested as an aphrodisiac).

Compulsive masturbation itself in adolescents was cited as a sign of depression by the late sexologist and collaborator with Alfred Kinsley, Wardell Pomeroy (the author of "Boys and Sex" [1968] and "Girls and Sex" [1970], two books every parent of adolescent children should read before handing them over to their children to learn from - my mother obtained them and wisely read both, then handed them to my father to give to me, but my elementary school principal jackass father was too stupid and lazy to read them first himself, and they contradicted EVERYTHING he told me - teachers and psychologists make the worst, most stupid and abusive parents, along with Marine Corps servicemen like him).

After reading Pomeroy, I recognized by how much I masturbated how depressed I was or wasn't. The more depressed I was, the more I did it. When I originally went I Prozac, I didn't want to masturbate at all, and was very pleased about that. I knew the Prozac was wearing off and losing efficacy when I relapsed into those urges and behavior. (My fuckhead elementary school principal father just told me and my brothers to run cold water over ourselves or take cold showers, then juts forget about it. He also told us masturbation causes cancer and that erections were a warning from Jesus. Again, there's nothing on Earth more completely stupid than degrees, especially advanced degrees in education or psychology. A college degree truly is proof of lack of intelligence.)

For me wellbutrin caused anorgasmia.

 

[Gnip]

For me wellbutrin caused anorgasmia.

Which again brings up the reminder that we are all an experiment of one, and a single size does not fit all.

For sleep, melatonin's supposed to be a naturally occurring hormone, yet no amount of melatonin supplementation has ever had any influence against how poorly I sleep (which my sleep study specialists are incredibly disturbed by after seeing me take megadose amounts of melatonin then not sleep a wink through my sleep studies, something all their studies and research state to be impossible, yet I have proved melatonin does not work for me, beyond any possibility of dispute).

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Spoiler: TMI and TW maybe?

I could definitely feel my drive go down when I was heartbroken and even abstained from masturbating for about a week but after a while it got to be too much and my groin started hurting because I was so used to doing it exactly once a day before... My drive was always fairly high since it has yet to be sated with anything else and there's probably no way it ever will.

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

I have no drive at all. Last time I had sex was like June I think. And I was just trying. I haven't even self served. I could care less about it now

 

[greebo6]

For me the depression itself rarely ever takes away sex drive but taking a certain anti depressant medication years ago absolutely did 100%. As soon as I switched to a different anti depressant medication sex drive returned.
So I think its often down to the side effects of the medication rather than the condition itself.

 

[franklynlb]

I force myself to jack off, since i can't have sex with another person and enjoy it, i'm trying not to loose that part of me, as much as depression and medication already already fucked with that.

 

[PointlessStruggle]

I'm not that far gone yet. Thats a side effect of ssri's I know, might be that if you're on them. Lots of my family are truck drivers. None of them seem too happy. Profession for the damned I guess

 

[Green Destiny]

Masturbation is my last form of stress relief and pleasure seeking. Not like i'll be lucky enough to have sex once before I die so it's all I've got left. Even tried participating in No Nut November but failed after a week. Like I really give a damn anyhow.