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WallowingWillow
Member
- Apr 10, 2024
- 13
I don't want to be here anymore. I've felt like this relentlessly for months and I know in my heart it will never change. However, I have no energy to plan any logistics around my death, such as tying up loose ends, preparing goodbye letters, rehoming my dog, even acquiring stuff for my suicide and deciding on a method. I also have no energy for daily life. Every single thing is agonizing. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. I feel like a self-deprecating, fat, lazy, entitled, unappreciative shit who is just whining and complaining, which makes me want to die more. What the fuck is wrong with me. I just want out. I don't want to suffer anymore. I wake up in a hellish nightmare everyday. My brain is rotting from the inside out and I just can't do this anymore but I have no fucking motivation for anything, not even to carry out my death. Can I just lie here and turn into a soulless, inanimate stone? ![Crying face :cry: 😢](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f622.png)
![Crying face :cry: 😢](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f622.png)