No direction in life and can't do anything

[redredead]

I switch back and forth between wanting to kill myself and not wanting to. I feel like there is no purpose in life and no place for people like me. In my head is so much mental illness and so much anxiety of everything. I can not live life and I feel like it's not going anywhere. I don't fit in in this society and I feel like I'm doomed to fail. I'm not sure if I want to die, but I don't want to live this life.
Anyone feel the same or got some helpful words? I would appreciate it really much. Best wishes to all of you

 

[oxymoron]

I switch back and forth between wanting to kill myself and not wanting to. I feel like there is no purpose in life and no place for people like me. In my head is so much mental illness and so much anxiety of everything. I can not live life and I feel like it's not going anywhere. I don't fit in in this society and I feel like I'm doomed to fail. I'm not sure if I want to die, but I don't want to live this life.
Anyone feel the same or got some helpful words? I would appreciate it really much. Best wishes to all of you

Same here. Except that I'm pretty sure on killing myself just cannot decide between N or gun. It kills me, this life, one shitty day at a time.

 

[redredead]

Same here. Except that I'm pretty sure on killing myself just cannot decide between N or gun. It kills me, this life, one shitty day at a time.

Thank you for replying. I feel very alone. One day I will be sure on something too I hope. Just waiting on something that will push me over the edge. Hope you find peace

 

[Oyoy]

Your not alone. I feel raw.

 

[oxymoron]

Thank you for replying. I feel very alone. One day I will be sure on something too I hope. Just waiting on something that will push me over the edge. Hope you find peace

Only death will bring peace. Amen.

Thank you for replying. I feel very alone. One day I will be sure on something too I hope. Just waiting on something that will push me over the edge. Hope you find peace

Yes I'm alone and deprived and isolated and in constant pain and senseless suffering since over two years now. I have no clue why I've been subjected to this but I do know now why people commit suicide. Life takes everything away from you and awaits for you to make the move towards death. That's what it is.

 

[Grey-zone]

I switch back and forth between wanting to kill myself and not wanting to. I feel like there is no purpose in life and no place for people like me. In my head is so much mental illness and so much anxiety of everything. I can not live life and I feel like it's not going anywhere. I don't fit in in this society and I feel like I'm doomed to fail. I'm not sure if I want to die, but I don't want to live this life.
Anyone feel the same or got some helpful words? I would appreciate it really much. Best wishes to all of you

Yeah I was a failure-to-launcher until recently (I'm 29). The past year I've been living away from my parents with my gf, but I have to admit that I feel absolutely blind about what to do in my life or if I even have what it takes cognitively to support myself or have an enjoyable existence. I can physically write down "options", such as teaching English, getting a driver's license and driving cross-country, enlisting in the Air Force, taking a class or two, etc etc... but there's no personal reaction or interest for any of it. Whenever I think of the future it's a near-total blank, and I feel like I'm banging my head against a wall. If I were somehow less fearful, maybe things would be different, but I don't even know about that. I comfort myself currently by the reminder that I can't sit on the fence forever... and if I'm willing to die I might as well do some things beforehand, blindly but surely.

 

[WhathaveIdone]

most definitely not alone I tried and failed to ctb last week and after spending a week on a physch ward feel the need to ctb even more. so much pain of living with no emotion

 

[4eyebiped]

I guess there is a certain peace to knowing 100 percent you want to die versus being confused or bouncing back and forth. I got that going for me at least. Got to find the positives in life...

 

[LMLN]

I'm sorry you feel like this. I can relate, except I know I want to die. Just have not been able to follow through with my plan yet. If you have any hope, hold on to it.