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lostinthebleak
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- Nov 16, 2021
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I'm truly jealous of those who have been able to get N and SN. living in the UK it's impossible to obtain from anywhere I've been able to search unless your a lab/school. I've discussed on previous threads my reasons for wanting to CTB and the methods I've leaned to the most (CO, car crash into tree, partial/full) but as much as I want to go and be with my angel (my mom) again (even though I'm not sure what's after this world. I'm not super religious) but worried about the family I'd leave behind at the same time. Being at risk of losing my livelihood in my job would be the final straw. I'd go into detail about it in PM if anyone would want to talk. I know encouraging people to CTB is prohibited on the forums so I'd just like someone to chat with. My situation seems to deteriorate by the day.