Hi, I just wanted to say hello! And thankyou for providing a safe place to discuss of suicide. It's such a taboo topic in the real world. My mum died by suicide and I have tried several times. I feel like it wont be long now before I CTB. I've tried getting better, I honestly have. I just don't belong in this world. Thankyou for accepting me!
avoid_slow_death
Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
- Feb 4, 2020
- 1,235
Welcome and sorry that you are going through such hard times. There are plenty of resources here no matter what you are seeking and (some) helpful individuals you can talk to who genuinely care.
Thankyou so much. I know I've spent a couple of days just reading around everything on the site.
Deathbydemo
Mage
- Feb 15, 2020
- 518
Hello @Dying_fairy and welcome to SS. We are all here to listen. I'm sorry to hear that events in your life have led you to here. We are with you, you are not alone. May I ask what are your reasons for wanting to CTB?
Thankyou! I'm sorry so many others feel the same way. I'm glad people understand but also sad that you are going through it too. I have BPD (emotionally unstable personality disorder) and major depressive disorder. I've self harmed knowingly since being age 10. Before that I was self harming without realising it. I just find life too much. I'm evil inside. There's a darkness in me that I can only make better by CTB. This life is the most painful experience. My mum couldn't cope with it and neither can I. I feel bad about leaving family behind but what am I meant to do? Live in constant, agonising pain? Just so I don't upset them?
WEASEL1234
By a thread
- Jan 28, 2020
- 134
BPDbitch
Experienced
- Nov 10, 2019
- 248
DAMN I FEEL THAT. I also suffer from borderline, and used to consider myself an evil person. However I can almost promise that you are not, it's this damn illness. Sorry you've found yourself here x
WEASEL1234
By a thread
- Jan 28, 2020
- 134
I was discharged from hospital again Sunday after failed attempt. Feel your pain and know that people on here do care and will feel how you do x
Hi! How are you? I'm sorry you've found your way here however we will all understand
