New low: booted from college due to grades

[inevitableandplannd]

Got put on a morning dose of Geodon in high school, causing me to sleep through my trig and calc classes. Come Calc 2 in college, I'm fucked.

I tried taking the course again, and got a D, but D is still considered failing by all the colleges in my state, so I can't get any form of engineering degree at any of them. And I've dedicated so many credit hours towards engineering that I don't have enough left to choose another path.

It's looking like it's either a life of minimum wage or suicide, and I'd much rather kill myself now than not be able to afford a gun later, when I'm homeless and much worse off.

How do I gather the strength and courage to CTB? I wish I could go back in time and give myself my future back, but I don't think a better life is possible anymore.

 

[Themogger]

Relatable

 

[nir]

I'm not super familiar with the US college system, so forgive me. You only get a limited amount of credit hours total? So you don't have enough even if you were to change your mind and pick a different path? Sorry, just kinda confused.

I'm lucky that I chose a path where the schooling was relatively easy. However, it means the jobs are just not great paying unless I get a Master's, which is expensive and hard to get because everyone wants one. Ugh. The system is fucked, isn't it?

 

[BlackEyedDog]

do u know where in the math u keep getting stuck or lost? there are free online courses/videos that can help u sort some of the background u need. and then u can take the class again.

 

[SoDone]

Hey, I am also struggling with engineering so bad i want to change majors. Its definitely not easy. I didnt pass 2 classes my last semester of second year and stress got so bad I became really depressed. Have you talked to your advisor about this? If not definitely do so you can figure things out.

 

[ToTheEgress]

I'm also struggling with similar things. I've lost a lot of passion for computer science, but I gotta continue as I'm starting my third year now.

 

[Worndown]

Welcome to the large group of students getting kicked in the butt.
You have engineeting talents that are very helpful in other professions. I had two careers that were wildly defferent but paid well enough without engineer stress.
I hope you can see your way through this unexpected problem.

 

[Labyrinth]

Abandon your prejudices about the minimum wage life. Not all poor people are mediocre and unhappy (although most are). Failing out of college is not the end of everything. Money can be obtained in legal and illicit ways; Will you place the reason for your existence in it?

How is your neurological health? His ineptitude in mathematics may be due to external factors and not due to the misuse of intelligence.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Jesus, that's rough. I've heard of colleges kicking people out and quite frankly, I don't understand it at all. I've NEVER heard of a D being failing, but in my college, a D for a class in your major focus is a fail, you need a C or higher or else you have to retake, they won't kick anyone out though. I'm sorry you're going through this, fuck that college.

 

[inevitableandplannd]

Abandon your prejudices about the minimum wage life. Not all poor people are mediocre and unhappy (although most are). Failing out of college is not the end of everything. Money can be obtained in legal and illicit ways; Will you place the reason for your existence in it?

How is your neurological health? His ineptitude in mathematics may be due to external factors and not due to the misuse of intelligence.

thats true, and i don't want to be classist in expressing my aversion to not making as much as i could. it just pisses me off (at myself) to know i *could* have done something with myself, but I can't even "just keep trying" anymore because schools want more.

my mental health has been subpar for most of my life, high school was when i started meds so things were difficult then due to cycling through different side effects constantly. this therapy called EMDR has really helped in the past couple months.

thank you all for the well wishes. College in the usa does suck. I also accept that my personal choices made this way harder than it has to be. I just want to make my loved ones' love & time be worth it

 

[stoiccactus]

i failed calc 2 three times, went an alternate route (different major) and eventually did ok. i know how you feel

 

[tenshi天神]

a lot of community colleges offer lower cost courses that can get u ready for a job right after. they def aren't engineering but they still have interesting options.
im a college dropout bc couldnt afford it but im going to work minimum wage for a few months & take a pharmacy tech program a few towns over. there's a lot of places I can work w it, & its pretty stable work w decent pay. maybe consider something like that? there are also online courses you can take & it doesnt matter much if ur out of state.
i wish u luck in whatever you end up doing. much love!

 

[inevitableandplannd]

you guys are so nice i could cry. thank you, every single one of you

 

[Praestat_Mori]

It's looking like it's either a life of minimum wage or suicide, and I'd much rather kill myself now than not be able to afford a gun later, when I'm homeless and much worse off.

I agree with that. But a college degree isn't everything in life you probably still have a lot of chances other than just a min-wage job. You should give t a try! You can always CTB later in life if everything fails.