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- Feb 12, 2023
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i went to meet a new doctor a while ago. i haven't had a gp since i was a child, so i was looking for one. the doctor is nice and helpful, but they made changes to some of my medications (without even telling me!).
i had been prescribed three new meds after being hospitalized. i don't want to name the prescriptions, so i'll just abbreviate everything:
rx 1 (treats depression): had to take this one twice a day
rx 2 (treats anxiety): also took this one twice a day
rx 3 (sleep aid, also treats anxiety): it's a sleep aid, so i only took it before bedtime.
my doctor made comments about how this was a lot of medication, then asked me if i was feeling any negative side effects from all of it. i told her that i wasn't experiencing any side effects and the medication was helping me, which was the truth. i still felt suicidal, but after being prescribed those meds, i could actually (mostly) function like a normal person.
they just told me that it was good to hear that and we moved on.
i went to refill my prescriptions and everything was changed. the dosage amounts were all changed so drastically.
rx 1: now i'm instructed to take it once a day. also, the dosage amount was cut in half.
rx 2: went from "take twice a day" to "take as needed", so now i can't even really access this one. i've gotten it refilled one time since seeing this doctor and i haven't been able to get more
rx 3: again, it's a sleep aid. nothing changed.
i can hardly even function now. i'm constantly anxious. i'm on the verge on an anxiety attack literal moments after waking up. with my original dosages, i was able to somewhat push my suicidal thoughts to the side so i could focus on other things. i just can't do that now. as i've said many times before, uni was the only thing bringing me any sort of joy, but now it feels torturous. i'm constantly about to break down and have an anxiety attack, i can't shut my suicidal thoughts up for one moment. focusing on anything uni-related is impossible. it makes me miserable now.
there have been a few physical symptoms as well, but i don't care enough to get into them.
i know i might just be experiencing withdrawal, but it's still terrible. i thought i would adjust by now, but it's getting worse by the day.
at the very least, i would've appreciated some sort of warning that my medication would be reduced so drastically.
i would still be setting up ctb if my medication went unchanged. i would still be miserable, too; but at least i would've been able to function.
i'm not sure if i even made sense throughout this post, i can barely think.
i had been prescribed three new meds after being hospitalized. i don't want to name the prescriptions, so i'll just abbreviate everything:
rx 1 (treats depression): had to take this one twice a day
rx 2 (treats anxiety): also took this one twice a day
rx 3 (sleep aid, also treats anxiety): it's a sleep aid, so i only took it before bedtime.
my doctor made comments about how this was a lot of medication, then asked me if i was feeling any negative side effects from all of it. i told her that i wasn't experiencing any side effects and the medication was helping me, which was the truth. i still felt suicidal, but after being prescribed those meds, i could actually (mostly) function like a normal person.
they just told me that it was good to hear that and we moved on.
i went to refill my prescriptions and everything was changed. the dosage amounts were all changed so drastically.
rx 1: now i'm instructed to take it once a day. also, the dosage amount was cut in half.
rx 2: went from "take twice a day" to "take as needed", so now i can't even really access this one. i've gotten it refilled one time since seeing this doctor and i haven't been able to get more
rx 3: again, it's a sleep aid. nothing changed.
i can hardly even function now. i'm constantly anxious. i'm on the verge on an anxiety attack literal moments after waking up. with my original dosages, i was able to somewhat push my suicidal thoughts to the side so i could focus on other things. i just can't do that now. as i've said many times before, uni was the only thing bringing me any sort of joy, but now it feels torturous. i'm constantly about to break down and have an anxiety attack, i can't shut my suicidal thoughts up for one moment. focusing on anything uni-related is impossible. it makes me miserable now.
there have been a few physical symptoms as well, but i don't care enough to get into them.
i know i might just be experiencing withdrawal, but it's still terrible. i thought i would adjust by now, but it's getting worse by the day.
at the very least, i would've appreciated some sort of warning that my medication would be reduced so drastically.
i would still be setting up ctb if my medication went unchanged. i would still be miserable, too; but at least i would've been able to function.
i'm not sure if i even made sense throughout this post, i can barely think.